Long story short, I attempted but stopped myself from commiting suicide (hanging FYI, got to where I nearly passed out and thought "***" and managed to stop it)...
This was over 3 years ago...
I went to therapy and am generally OK now.I still have intrusive thoughts from time to time, but I'm better equipped to deal with low points.
I haven't told anyone about this, partner, family, friends, no one... only people who know are the 2 Psyc's I spoke with... everyone just thinks I went through a bad patch and am fine now..
Do I tell anyone? I feel like that even pondering over it I should...but my partner who would probably be the first (only?) person to tell lost a dear friend to suicide, so I feel it would change a lot in our relationship and she is the last person I want to burden it with, as there were already times before where if we fought, and I went out for a time out, she would panic I would never come back ( her friend did something similar)...
Thoughts?