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Yeah, I know.

I have 2 moms. The mom I jst talked about is basically the leader in the house. My relationship with my other mom is on and off. I can get way closer to her than my main parent. She works at a highschool so she has more experience with kids. I don't know if that's really why but I think that might play a part? Maybe, idk. But I can joke around with her and stuff and I can't do that with my main mom. She also doesnt really comment on my clothes. And she really likes my boyfriend. She is much more chill than my other mom. But sometimes she can get very angry and she will put than anger onto me. She will say hurtful things when she is mad. She has called me an *** before and slapped me. It doesn't hurt that much but it still sucks. I wouldn't call it abuse. She would never really hurt me. But it just sucks because one day we will be like "best friends" and will be getting along so well. Next day she hates me for no reason.

Yes, I know, thank you. I have done many of my friends hair and I have had many compliments on my skills. Many people have told me they can see me doing something like this. The only part I am worried about is figuring out my life, but first off, just graduating highschool. I need to get through that first. My mom says she is willing to get me an apartment when I graduate to live by myself and I am terrified. Do you think that is too soon to do something like that? I barely know how to cook. My mother still does my laundry too.

Yes, I know. I am planning to get a job this summer and then work my senior year. I have been saving up money since I was like 5 and my grandmother left me a couple thousand after she died. My parents say they are willing to help me with the money as long as I get a job and put in some work too.

I love my mother but I don't like her. I have stayed with my grandma over the summer which was about 2 months and I did not miss my mother at all. It was a total relief not having to be around her. She makes me upset a lot of the time. I finally felt happy. And nobody was there to judge everything I do. Again, I love my mother, I just do not LIKE her...

Somewhat. Next year I will be a senior. I want to go into cosmetology and do a program and get a certificate then I will head on to college. And I have been practicing hair and makeup a long time. I am pretty good at it and it is something that I love. My grades right now are not the best though but I am working on it. How I feel? I basically want to get out of the damn house as soon as I can. My mother is annoying af.

That is absolutely terrible. I might just cut her off when I am old enough. There is no way I am going to be able to deal with her for that long.

For example, in the summer I wear shorts and crop tops, nothing too revealing. That's just what I wear. I have seen plenty of girls wear worse. My mom asks me who I'm trying to show off to or that I am trying to sell my body. Today actually, she specifically said I was a scandelous girl when I am wearing a crop top that shows an inch of my stomach and shorts. Not even booty shorts. On top of that I had a zip-up hoodie. This is one of the many assumptions she makes and they can be very hurtful. She makes me feel like I am a *** so now I overthink about everything. I even overthink about wearing a bathing suit to the pool around her. I am scared she is going to say something cuz she has made me feel horrible and guilty about things.

I am 17. And thank you, I will try talking to her but sometimes it is hard because she says hurtful things a lot of the time to me.

Do you know when it stops?

Yeah,

Yeah but she is a lesbian so it's different. She once even made up a story about her being raped try to scare me. I asked her later, and she said that never happened. Like who does that??

I have told her multiple times nothing is going to happen though. We are not like that yet.

I just think she is being a bit dramatic- that's all.

She already knows that.