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Yes that is what I sent her at 9 am. I have not heard back from her.

Even a week or so ago before she went away. She told me she wanted to give me a key to the house to remind her. I did and she responded she didn't know where the extra four keys were. I just let it slide and said okay when you find them babe. But it was strange that she didn't know where they were. After telling me she wanted me to have one.

Her daughter's mother in law and her new husband. Not sure if anyone else is. Not at all she wanted to move down to her land in Deleware and build on that. We talked about wanting to do that and keep the beach house. Not really I was going to do it and was looking into it on my own. But she made the points of wanting me with her all the time sooner than later. My co workers are upset that she allowed her son and me to bond closely. To the point that he always asked when I was going to come. An looked forward to me being at the house. It hurts both of us and he is only 11. How I had already won him over. That hurts a lot for me. Not sure she was the one who opened up the conversation and wanted it. I put the ball completely in her court this morning. "If you love me and still want to be together open up your heart and talk to me. I don't know how to take this silence. It is ripping my heart apart. I love you and want to be with you. I truly hope you do as well. If it is scary talk to me. It is scary for me too. But I know I love you and we can make it through anything together. If you have had a change of heart and don't love me. Or don't want to be together please let me know. So I can get my belongs. I love you Samantha. I hope you love me as well."

My stuff is at the house she rents in Deleware. I live in Pennsylvania and work brings me close to Philadelphia each day. Making for a nice 30 min drive most days to her place to spend the nights. Cook dinner and spend time together with her and the kids. She was visiting West Virginia. It is about two and a half to three hours away. She said she would stop with other family first in Hagerstown Maryland. Which was half an hour or so from her mother in laws. She says she is moving from Deleware to West Virginia. We talked about moving in together into her place in Deleware. To stay in that area for a little bit. To then build on her land in Deleware. She took me down to the land to see it. I have been to the beach house in Deleware as well. She said she would have had me moved in already. Just she didn't want to rush it on the kids. I was looking at apartments in Pennsylvania and she got very weird about it. That is how the conversation began. That I would pass on the place to have us move in together sooner than later. She also made the comment of not wanting to take that away from me. But I reassured her that Deleware with her and the kids is where I wanted to be.

Her land is in the state she currently lives in. Plus her beach property that we just opened up together with the kids a couple weekends ago. All the talk was about a summer at the beach house together. Making plans and she even just took new work starting at the start of May. She had just been cleared for money to be paid to her through watching her dad. A somewhat long process. That has to be through the state and she will lose those benefits? I tried calling her twice already. I don't think she will pickup. I don't want to hound her if she is still working through what she wants for us. I don't want to mess this up. I hope she still loves me and is just confused. I agree it is how my mind works. I analyze everything. The past 5 days have been torture. I have no appetite I can't sleep right. Tears constantly if I think about her. My heart is shattered into a million pieces by her silence.

Yes I get that I was just being hopeful at that point. From everything we ever shared. How we are together and talked. I just can't wrap my head around how a one day trip has turned into this. None or my friends or family can either. Why do you think she has not said that? Or deleted our relationship off Facebook? I have noticed her sleeping schedule has been thrown off completely. Staying up very late. Being up during the night. She has even signed on numerous mornings just as I would wake up for work. She would always be sound asleep when I woke up. I would need to come and kiss her awake and tell her I loved her to wake her. As she always wanted to get up and see me off to work. Could she be setting her alarm for when I would wake up and seeing if i'm on IG or Facebook as she checks both and gets off instantly? Or she is that restless she is just already awake? This morning she had gotten off twenty minutes before 4:45 when I always wake up. But she signs on to sign off at my wakeup time?

The fire still effects them surely. We were out and her son smelled smoke. It was panic and fear. It was a fire somewhere else in the neighborhood. She checks the stove to make sure it was all off. Cords unplugged when we went out. My phone charger needing to be unplugged if we were going out. They were apart from each other after the fire. The kids her and the pets. She didn't know if her cats had died in the fire. Her dad was at home with the dogs when she pulled up to the fire with her kids. I will never understand all that pain. We talked a lot about it. I was very supportive and loving. She had one other very large thing weighing on her heart at the start of our relationship. Bigger than anything most of us will have to face. She needs to take care of her dad also. If it was not for her. Her other 3 sisters would have him in a home already. She gets a lot of money through him and watching him. Economically she is really good. The mother in law thing I don't understand at all. Maybe they had a good relationship. But you don't pickup and move like that off a one day trip. I have ruined relationships in the past not giving space. Trying to support and be a constant during a troubling time. I lost two girlfriends this way before. I have given her space and could have done better now. It is hard not knowing if you should reach out to your partner or give them complete space and say nothing. You don't want them to be hurt because you didn't. I have never been through this in this way. We were practically living together. I have so much of my clothing, expensive chef knives, my recipe book and so much more at her house. Almost all my work clothing. I have been going all week with two shirts and two pairs of pants and having to do wash constantly.

I appreciate that I know nothing now. Only what she told me that last message. Her keeping our relationship status active through the silence and nothing more. We did heavily invest in each other. I think she would have asked to move in fulltime already. But she talked about not rushing the kids. That is true I never expected her to shutdown on me like this. Even when we didn't agree on something and she was clearly upset she would talk something out with me. That is true I do love her and her kids are amazing. Life became what I always hoped a relationship would be with her. I was so good to her and the kids. I really hope she is okay and we can work through this as a couple. 😔

It is hard to tell. When we would talk about her home and I would say her place. She would instantly correct me and tell me my home. We would only talk about me coming home to her. If she wanted me to come with I think she would have said so. So I might have scared her. Or who knows. She always wanted me around. She was the one who talked of moving in soon. I never pushed or asked for much. It naturally became weekends Friday through Sunday with her. Then her son and his best friend had basketball games on Tuesday nights. They wanted me to come to the games. So it turned into Tuesday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday together. I asked if she would like to spend 5 days together adding in Thursdays and she said she would like that. So we have been doing that for awhile. A couple times she asked me not to come over because she wanted to be alone. Partially because of a argument and once because she felt sick all day.

Wouldn't she just delete me off all of the social media's then from the start? Not to leave our relationship status up all this time? I have so much stuff at her house as well. That is what a couple of my co workers have been saying. That she isn't or possibly never even left and has been home the entire time. I have been giving her the benefit of the doubt. That she wouldn't hurt me and does love me. I'm really hurt not mad at this point. I know she doesn't like to talk about things. When we have has stuff come up when we are together. I try to talk about something that happened a day or so before. To talk face to face and let her know my feelings. To check in on her thoughts on it. An she always brushes it over and away that it is fine. That she didn't want to talk about it. It is so hurtful. Even if she does just want to move and breakup she should be able to say that. Just leaving the message as we are moving is so open ended and vague. You didn't ask me to come with you. You didn't say it was too much and we should breakup. You just say it when you supposedly have connection issue. Then let me worry for four straight days if I'm losing the girl I love and her kids. She said she talked to her dad everyday. That stuck out to me. That she was making the effort to call him in the hospital. But wouldn't message me for long periods of time. Blame the connection. If you truly said that and the connection went to ***. You should have went to town to message me or call me. To let me know things are okay. To never do that over a text message. When you know i'm asleep because I had to be up before 5 am for work.

I have been dating a girl for four months now. We met online and have gradually went from meeting to spending weekends together. Four days a week to me staying with her five days a week. We celebrated Easter together our first holiday. I cooked the entire meal for us the kids and her dad. We went out and shopped for easter baskets for the kids together. Decorations for the house. We exchanged gifts together. I got her flowers in a beautiful bunny as well. My birthday shortly after that. We were together last weekend like normal. I was fixing dinner and she left to take her daughter to convenience store. She returns saying the great grandmother on her daughter's father's side is in hospice. They have no relationship with the father. But she seems indebted to her ex mother in law. Who she said has always been there for her. I ask her if she would like me to stop dinner. She thinks for a short period of time and says yes. I go to her bedroom and she is taking my bag out of the closet to put my things in to leave. I get ready we tell each other we love one another kiss and she leaves to drop off her sons friends. I leave shortly after. Later on I message her and thinking she might have arrived. But she had not left yet. She was still getting ready and got short with me because I didn't stay to cook the dinner. The trip was supposed to be Sunday night and be home on Tuesday. To do things with her son and spend the night together like we always do. She extends the trip another day. At this point she is messaging back and forth somewhat normal. Telling me she loves me. Talking about things going on. She gets quiet then. The trip is extended to Friday or possibly through the weekend. I reach out and she says she has bad service. That she is in town and they are going back soon and she loves me. I tell her I love her. We send one or two more messages and I go to bed for the night. I wake up a little before midnight Wednesday into Thursday with a message from her saying she is moving away to that state. She says it as We are moving to (insert state). I tell her I love her and meet her with support and excitement of us being together all the time. She has not responded to anything I have sent her on IG or phone messages since. I tried calling her twice and no answer. Once one ring and to voice mail. Another day it rang all the way through. She is on IG off and on for a minute at a time until today. She was away for many hours today. Then online for about about a hour twice. Between 8 and midnight. It looks like she is home. But she has still not reached out. We had talked about moving in together. About all of our plans for the future. Wanting to be married to have more kids. The state came up as something way down the road as a possibility. She has land in her state that she wants to build on. So I have no idea why the plans changed. Why my love and support has been met with silence. I love her and want to be with her and the kids. I have given her space and love and support in messages when I do reach out. Four days of silence hurts. Our status is still up on fb that we are together. She has not deleted me off fb, ig or snap. I just don't know what to think. I have not been sleeping well or wanting to eat. At moments I breakdown and cry. I really expected her to be so excited and happy that I supported what she wanted. That I love her and want to be with them. I feel like she is just waiting to break things totally off. Otherwise she would be talking? She has been through a lot lately. With losing her place she was renting in a fire that took 3 apartments. This was a little while before me but not long. It still effects her and the kids. Then she takes care of her sick dad. We just took him to the ER the weekend before to have him admitted. We visited him together last Saturday. The day before she left. He is doing much better and can go to rebab probably this week for twenty days. We had date night that night. We went out shopping for clothes earlier on Sunday and she was all excited to do a fashion show for me. When her dad was going in she was about to cry. She was holding it back trying to be strong. I tried to hug her talk to her let her know I was with her. She told me she didn't like to be touched at times like that. That she knew she could cry in front of me. When we were in the kitchen when she told me about the great grandmother. She made the comment of this is just what she needed with her dad sick. Almost like it is too much. She could be so overwhelmed that she is just being silent not to hurt me? That she does love me and could want me to be with them. But is not ready to communicate those feelings with everything going on? She told me in the past that she is not religious. But prayed for me. Someone to accept her and love her and the children. How I had won over her son. He looked forward to me being over. Always asking when I was coming. Her daughter accepted me as well. How much she loved me. How thankful she was for me. She had even said that within this time frame we could be living together in her state. I don't understand the silence and not responding to my love and support. I love this girl with all my heart and her kids. I don't want to lose her.