lonely in Seattle

oh i meant immigrant community in the US, not an actual sponsoring green card or similar. just bc i don't feel i really connect with US culture very much and i do have some affinity for Chinese and Vietnamese cultures. but as the other replies pointed out i think i was just feeling negative. it feels like there's a woman i could really love out there but the fact that it's basically random chance to actually find her is scary. but i guess that's life

thank you for your advice. i definitely don't think life is unfair to a man my age, I'm just getting a little worried or panicked that i might not be able to find someone who meets my desires. but I'm also going through severe depression as well so I'm sure that's affecting my outlook. thank you again

thank you for the advice!

i left her. i tried everything in my power to make her happy and she was abusive toward me. please don't assume things about me

So i (38M) had what i thought was the relationship i was looking for, but over the last decade together she became extremely unhappy and began to be cruel to me, and eventually i made the decision to end things. now i feel like a pathetic old guy because i want the same kind of relationship - someone from a culture that values family, doesn't have casual sex, someone who wants kids. in my experience that's almost only immigrants! but dating sites either have bar hoppers or super gym rat / outdoorsy people that just don't match my life, or they've already got kids and want someone to help raise them. i feel guilty wanting another chance at the right relationship, like I'm looking for some skeevy mail order bride or something. am i wrong?