I am currently in a stable relationship of 2.5 years. We get on well, have a decent sex life and are in it for the right reasons but recently things just feel abit one sided. With the cost of living my partner has moved back in with his mum to save money (she is not my biggest fan) I find that as a lady I am paying for things alot more than before despite being on a lower salary as I am more organised with my money. He barely takes me out and when he does he chooses cheaper places without making it obvious which I have always been very understanding about. But he seems to be getting quite comfortable.
Last summer an ex who I had an amazing sex life with (currently lives abroad) reached out trying to rekindle. I quickly shut him down explained I'm with someone, tried to limit my interactions but somehow found myself talking to him all the time. He tried to talk me into meeting for a final goodbye but I refused as I was scared I'd do something I'd regret.
After a few weeks the conversations eventually died down and I went back to enjoying what I could of my relationship. Few weeks ago I found out he was involved in a severe accident where one person was pronounced dead and went crazy when I couldn't get through to him to see if he was OK. A day later he got back to me and confirmed he lost his friend was in a bad place and that he'd be coming back home.
I messaged twice to check in and comfort him when he got back, again caring abit too much without my boyfriend knowing. I was so desperate to just see him to know he was OK because the thought of almost loosing him killed me. I suggested we meet his response was you know what i want, I'll leave it to you.
Now I love my boyfriend and would never even imagine cheating on him but i am really gravitating towards my ex. I know i am not married and feel drained by my relationship but I believe in being a good person. But this just feels like the right thing to do..
Help.
