LuckyLeef

I mean...I'm not attracted to physical objects. 😂 I just use them to imagine romantic partners. But I hear you. Thank you for the advice.

I work from home, but I will sign up for more volunteer events and keep attending gym classes and other hobby groups.

Have you seen the subreddit HomeschoolRecovery? It gives more insight on many homeschool upbringings are. It was more than just being strict/overprotective (which my parents went way overboard with). They didn't have me around any kids, classmates or friends my entire childhood and adolescence. That's very damaging for the human mind, let alone a young one. You know how people went crazy with the strictest COVID shutdowns and quarantines? That was my entire existence, except there was no one to call or text either. I live on my own now. Trying to make friends, which you know is hard for a 20-something nowadays out of college.

I don't understand--I didn't say this.

I'm 25. I still haven't dated anyone yet, and would very much like to. I obviously haven't been homeschooled in years, but the way I was homeschooled was very lonely and isolated, which hurt me really deeply. Also had parents who were weird about me dating deep into my 20s. I've done a lot of healing of untangling my upbringing and releasing the past, but it's left me with a bad habit of laying down at night and straight up making with inanimate objects. I'll kiss or hug my door frame. I'll be laying down on my bed and casually start kissing my hand or inside of my forearm. I'll have "pillow talk" with a pillow, pretending they're someone I love. Last night, kissing the inside of my forearm, it suddenly occurred to me: Wait, this is ***ing weird at any age, but incredibly weird to still be doing this as a 25 year old woman. I guess I should stop. I'm trying to put myself out there, make more friends, meet more people. Actually going on my first solo trip anywhere next week. But I didn't realize how often I do my pillow kissing habit...I've stopped myself so many times today from not kissing random objects as I go about my day.