My wife and I have been together for going on 13 years. We have a lot of things in common and never get tired of spending time together, she is my best friend. We enjoy watching things together, playing video games, and just working on things in the same space. Lately I feel like I’m walking on eggshells around her. There are topics I can’t bring up without causing her to get upset and shut down, and even when I ask if there’s another time we could talk about it, she won’t commit. She doesn’t like to make promises because she thinks I’ll get upset.
It’s been several years since we’ve had a sex life. In the past 5 or so years, we’ve had sex maybe a handful of times. My love language is a lot more physical affection based than hers, which I’ve always understood about her, and I’ve done my best to be patient with her. In the past year or so we’ve talked about taking things slow and building back up to it since we’re so out of practice. However, it’s been about 6 months and she has trouble even kissing me for an extended period, pulling away almost immediately every time.
I try my best to be patient and understanding, I know we both have our issues, but I really miss that closeness. She feels so closed off from me. I know she has body image and anxiety issues, and I’ve been nothing but supportive of her. Tonight she got upset because she thought I was staring at her, because I’m tired and was thinking while looking at her. I like to look at her, I love her and she brings me comfort. I’m sad. I wish I knew what to do.