notthatone

I bet she probably was going to apologize but she yells at me and I didn’t feel like hearing her yell at me for hurting my feelings.

I don’t try to. Honestly she’s always picking at me and get mad that I take things she says offensively. I know I need therapy. She’s pretty dismissive of a lot of things I do that don’t involve her. Im so considerate I feel I’m getting the end shaft of this relationship

My gf and I (both 27) been together a year and a half. We both know I have control issues like I get anxiety when I can’t control the things that happen around me. I feel like I spiral and can’t get caught up (bills, work, life type things). Today I was given an affirmation card that said roughly I can have peace even if there are things are around me that I can’t control. I teared up cause I know I needed to see it. I needed to reflect. I told my gf about the card. Took her like 8 hours to open my message but I’m venting so that’s irrelevant. She opens it while we FaceTime gets up and laughs. Says that’ll be a cold day in hell. I shut down internally(I don’t communicate well) and swipe off the screen. Says oh did I hurt your feelings since I stopped talking and hung up. She called me not long after but I didn’t pick up. She blows up my phone til I just leave my phone in the house while I leave so I can stop hearing the sound. I know ignoring her isn’t healthy. I didn’t want to hear her be mad at me cause she didn’t take me or my feelings seriously and hurt me.