drizzy135

Thank you for replying. I must have got it when we were not exclusive but still having sex. I always wore protection. Unfortunately, the lesions on me are on areas not covered by a condom.

This has been very very stressful for me recently. So I have been seeing this girl for just over 1.5 years and we started off slowly as friends casually but spent a lot more time together and eventually fell in love and saw a potential future together. We decided to be exclusive 4 months ago but have been having sex for over a year. She lost her virginity to me and it was a very big thing for her as she was waiting until marriage. I have been her only sexual partner. So, at the start of November she noticed some painful bumps in her genital area and we both really freaked out as it looked like herpes. I did not have any symptoms at the time. She got checked out and the doctors confirmed it was herpes with a swab. I thought back to a few months ago when I had mild symptoms but I didn't see anyone at the time and they healed themselves. In hindsight, it was probably my first herpes outbreak but I did not know that. I feel so awful and feel like I have completely ruined her life. She has been very angry with me and has cut me off completely from her life. She has deleted me off social media and told me not to message her despite that I have still tried. But it has been a month now since our last interaction. We currently live around one hour away and haven't seen each other since before this all happened. What can I do? Do I accept that she will never forgive me for this? Or do I give her time and try to approach her again later? I really really love this girl and want to spend the rest of my life with her. It has been two months now and I don't think I can get over her. She is the love of my life.