I have been dating my boyfriend for about 3+ years now and we live together, we are both older people in our mid fifties but act like we are 18! I met him and instantly felt like I have known him all my life, everything about him is like if I were a man I would be him! He told me he loved me early on and said he felt it was love at first sight and he believed it because of a story he shared with me. I realized that I had a different type of love for him, deep, very deep and I never felt this for anyone ever. It's like if he's not around I can't breathe...anyway at first it was really great and I had been too
ld things about him that chased several women away and he thought I probably would too but that none of it was true. I stayed, I believed what he said. Then I would see things online like dating profiles, he said they were old and yes, he opened a couple but all the rest his ex created and it would take forever to find them all and close them and he wouldn't know where to start. Then i realized I was blocked on his social media, I made a fuss and he added me to a couple and they are with limitations like Facebook it's made private so that I can't see his friends and TikTok I can't be on as well as Instagram. I was on one and freaked out because he had literally hundreds of girls and actually like 2500! He had his profile say single and he said it has always said that for reasons I'd rather not get into. Well then I saw he added my cousin who happens to be beautiful and has a great body, ok fine, but then I see where every morning he'd say,"good morning beautiful", and on instagram, " you are absolutely beautiful", well of course he got pissed when I said something because he doesn't say that stuff to me. Then I used his tracfone because mine was dead or something, anyway, a text came in from a woman saying he made her smile. I asked him and he denied it. I called this woman and she said he just wanted phone sex that they never hooked up or anything! Then I found an account and spoke to a girl who said he was calling her and told me all sorts of stuff...I cried like a baby and asked him after I cursed him out. He says his ex had his phone for a few days and she did it and the guy was a friend of hers pretending to be him. Okay remind you, he takes his phone EVERYWHERE with him and I highly doubt he'd be so calm without his phone for even a day let alone 3.His phone is locked, always on silent, always turned face down, and when he texts sometimes I can see but he's not texting, when i do walk in he jumps sky high and he starts jabbering really fast about stupid stuff and as he's doing that I am walking towards him and he's closing stuff down and then hurrys and puts it down. I ask what he was doing and he says something and I question what he just did and he says I am seeing things! I have found about 8 dating site profiles and saw naked pictures of him and newer pictures because he ex started them and look they have old pictures. Well I found 4 with ewer pictures, maybe more and one was taken right in my kitchen because you can see my stuff on top of the cabinets. If I call he doesn't answer and if I text he won't respond for hours. I am just losing it! I love him so much and don't want to lose him and my gut tells me he's cheating or at the very least talking with girls. I thought maybe sex sites because we haven't had any intimacy in over 8 or more months and he used to grab my butt or kiss me but nothing. We don't go anywhere and he says he has asked me to go to dinner and I always change my mind, 2x and yes I did change my mind. There is so much more and I do mean alot but I don't want to put every little detail out there. I lost my youngest daughter 6/20/2020 and my mom 12/18/2020, I just couldn't bare to lose him too. Please tell me what your thoughts are...I feel bad asking because he has told me he swears to God on his son that he is a faithful, loyal man and he would never do anything like that but I truly feel as though I am losing my mind. I feel like he's texting with women and maybe even meeting up with them. The thing I hate is when I ask something and he always has an explanation and most of the time it doesn't sound like it could be real. Or when he says he didn't say that or I'm crazy and I heard wrong etc. I just feel like if you don't love me anymore please don't use me just go. He always sees women on TV and says how hot they are or females he has known and how beautiful they are and yet he never tells me that and when ask if he thinks i'm attractive he says he thinks I'm very pretty. I sent him a picture the other night and he says you are absolutely beautiful and I said do you know who this is? He actually didn't at first but why say that? The funny thing the texts Ive seen on line say that and said no it's not him and look I don't talk like that!!! Excuse me but yeah ya do!!!!
