So .. clearly there’s an issue here.
I’ve dated some toxic women after my ex wife and I divorced a few years ago.
The current woman is everything I’ve ever wished for in a partner. And everything I deserve. But. She clearly deserves some personal development work and therapy. She has been rocked by past hurts and each time we are about to move forward she pulls back.
And I’m aware that this behavior is jot something I want or deserve. But she is so so close To perfect in so many ways. And yet not.
So I’ve kinda kept it light and cool and dated other women while I’ve waited for her to actually date me. I Stopped when she and I started ramping up in August /Sept. then recently the breaks were put on when I stayed with my ex for my daughters birthday. So.. to protect my heart from her instability… I started searching on apps and lining up other dates.
I’m right on the edge of saying goodbye to her. But. I want to give it everything it deserves in a reasonable and healthy way.
If it continues too cool off or she pulls back more. Goodbye.
If things warm up leading up to December and evolve on that date and beyond … I’ll keep myself in it. But I’m ultra cautious now that the most recent attempt to bail happened.
It’s like easy to say it’s not worth it or unhealthy or to block her…. But.. this person is so very close. Maybe she is the next Mrs HeyHeyLovinlife… Maybe not. I’ll know soon