givicho

Honestly the first choice. Just like any other teenager I'm not ;D I've said it before that we have few problems in our relationship. Like any other long term relationship there's a bit of boredom going on, sometimes it gets so boring I question myself whether I love her or not but it really changes rapidly. To me sex just seems like a way to step up the relationship but maybe I'm wrong. But yes as it seems I'm the one suffering myself x) I've read all the replies and I got to the conclusion that I'll just wait out and let it naturally happen. Not worth it for me to pressure her and potentially lose her.

She has yes. She told me she was scared or that she would freak out if she were naked, well it's something related to her insecurity. I understand and I don't push her into anything but for her to take that long makes me think that she just made up one reason to cover another one. For a fact she has been topless with me, I've held her breasts with her being completely fine with it. She sometimes asks me questions about sex like what i like, where would i have it, how often etc. Yet she continues to shut me down. It's not that I start talking about sex and she doesn't want it, what makes me mad is that she's the one bringing the topic up, sometimes i feel like I'm in a weird tv show where I'm dating someone from church

So me and my girlfriend have been dating for almost 2 years now. I'd say we have a great relationship with few problems. One of them is our sexual life. First of all we both live with our parents, mainly because we are in eastern Europe and there's no way for any of us to move out. I honestly though this was the only problem that held us back from having sex. This summer in 2022 we went on a vacation with her friends and we had a separate room, I was excited because I thought this would be the day you know? like damn I'm gonna lose my card. An hour into entering the room we get all horny and stuff and she starts dry humping or some sort so I go in and make a move. First response I get is stop, I ask what's wrong?, she said she isn't ready. Okay so this weirded me out because if she's not ready why is she the one going ham on me, this has been the case for the next 3 days of our vacation, like she would literally do all sort of sexual things without going sexual, literally cowgirl with her pants on or some sort. This honestly left me heartbroken and till this day I ask myself why's she doing this. For a minute I thought - maybe she didn't want to have sex because she was on her period. 3 Weeks after our vacation her parents went to a summer house for a day so she invited me over to her house. Again I got excited so after chatting and having fun we start making out, after few minutes I decide to make a move again only to be replied with a no. I don't know how to describe it, I felt my heart drop, like it was empty. After 4-5 hours she gets horny again and I decide to guide her and yeah I got somewhere and she started giving me a handjob, that didn't last long it was like 4-5 minutes, she said she didn't know what she was doing and she was smiling, like yeah she really didn't have a problem on that (I'm sure we talked about it) but she said she was getting tired and because of it I called it off and said it was fine. Till this day when we have a sexual talk she will find a way to emphasize that she is not ready. This on the other hand breaks my heart, my own girlfriend of 2 years doesn't want to have sex with me and I'm gonna turn 19 with my v-card intact(This in itself destroys my self-esteem). I feel neglected and not enough, what should I do? P.S - She is not religious, she is a virgin, yes she loves me