I am 26 F my husband is 28 M. We have been together 12 years we are best friends and rarely ever even argue. The other day he basically told me how unattractive I was and gave me a checklist of things to do on a regular basis. I need to be more attractive for him so he doesn’t leave me. He said so many hateful things I’ve never hated myself so much. I have no idea if he’s allowed to tell me what to do to this degree. I have no friends or anyone I can talk to. Background is I do absolutely everything for him cook all meals all cleaning. I even lay out his clothes and take care of every single financial aspect and planning. I do work full time. I make an effort at least a couple times a week to put on makeup and something sexy. I never ever ever say no to sex and we usually are intimate at least every other day. I can’t stop replaying all the things he said to me over and over again. I have no appetite I only eat when he’s here and I’m forced to. I can’t believe the only person who matters to me the most is constantly judging me and only can see anything he deems negative. Never appreciates anything I do I couldn’t imagine not having to put in effort into every little detail of our life life like he does. My chest hurts I can’t sleep and I can’t look myself in the mirror I hate myself so much. All I’ve ever wanted to do is make him happy and he thinks I’m ugly and pathetic and must have these thoughts constantly. I feel like I’m more of property it never matters what I actually want I just need to do what I have to so he’s happy. Please if anyone has anything to say I feel so empty inside I’m so depressed.
