I had a strange on and off relationship with one guy who always told he didn't want a relationship, but kept sending me mixed signals.
I felt something strange was going on and the situation was getting me crazy.
He said there was no one else.
If I pressured, he restrained, but when I ignored him he came closer.
Above all, we were friends and confidents.
I know that I was a jurke many times because I liked him, but I didn't want to.
Within one year and a half of this situation, I found out he had a girlfriend almost all the time... A girl who was a previous close friend.
I told him he was disgusting, a rat, a *** man and that I didn't want to see is face again. He said he was sorry...
Next day, I was so pissed and angry that I sent a message to the girl and told her everything. Then, I told him and he said that he was very sorry, admitted me that he didn't told me because he knew I won't be with him that way and begged me to let him start over with her.
It was really hard to hear that...
Next day we saw personally to talk and he told me that it was all over with her, that the worst thing was not being whitout her, but dealing with the fact that he hurted very much two people.
Two months after we meet briefly to say goodbye in a peaceful and not resentful way.
I sent him a message on new years eve and told him he better move on, fight for her if he wanted or start over again with a new perspective.
Two months later I accidentally saw him driving from her house to work... And find out they were together again. Later that day I sent him a message wishing the best for them and that I was allrigh with it. He never answered...
We live 70 miles away from each other and we never saw each other again.
I know I shouldn't, but I still miss him and just wanted to be able to be a friend.
Yesterday I asked him to follow on Instagram and he accepted, but a few hours later removed me...
I don't no what to think. Does he hate me? Does he simply want to move on and forgot that I exist? It's resentment?
He was a jerk, but I think he didn't because he had thoughts and he choose her over me because that was the right thing to do and because I acted like a crazy person.
