Hello all. I’m currently away from home to get a few surgeries done for my eyes. I’m being forced to stay with my mother for 3 weeks, who I believe is a narcissist. 6 months ago I was diagnosed with BPD, a personality disorder. I did tell my mother this as soon as I was diagnosed, but she brushed it off and I rarely ever brought it up again and she never brought it up. My whole life was abuse and trauma. At the hands of both my parents. I am 24, female.
I feel uncomfortable staying here with my mother, but needed someone to come help me out while I get surgery. She’s been starting arguments, and going off the rails almost the entire time I have been here. I had to lock myself in the bedroom (bringing up feelings of when I was younger) to escape it. This morning, she was badgering me to go out and do something with her. Normally I would. But this entire trip has been really stressful and traumatizing to me. I tried to explain why, and explain that I have BPD, but she got defensive. I asked her if she even googled it or knows anything about it. She stopped talking and then immediately screamed saying no, googling illnesses is bad. I asked if she even knows what is stands for. She then came into the room screaming that I need to see a doctor and that she was calling one right now! I was speechless. Then she kept calling it BPI instead of BPD. She said that I was supposed to tell her about it and that I never want to speak with her about anything. She then insulted me, called me names and said I was crazy. She said I’m a miserable insane person and that I hate everyone. She then said that I have to move out of her home when we get back and left.
Now she is googling it, saying that I do not have any BPD symptoms, and denying that she ever said any of the things she did before. Denying my reality. I am shaking as I write this.
I am so beside myself. I have no idea what to do. I made plans for myself before this trip to speak with a therapist when I get back. I am honestly scared of this woman and need some advice on how to handle 3 weeks of this. I’m debating if I should just leave.
