PattyJohnes72

I have a work visa, so my legal situation is fine. I originally came to the country I am currently in for 3 years, I never planned to stay. Where we were supposed to move he actually has a family (grandparents, aunts etc). I am at least 12h by plane from my home, and with Global Situation and other issues, not gonna lie - I miss family, friends, living closer to my culture. That's why I wanted to move and he was always on board with that. I guess I don't understand the previous actions of his: he was the one taking me to look for rings, taking notes what I like, he ordered ring sizer, he measured my finger etc. I was also planning to talk to his parents that live like 2,5 hours away that probably they need to help me more with his health issues, because I know this is not his fault - but I feel like I'm a maid. Despite him telling me everyday how grateful he is, how much he loves me and being affectionate.

Hi people, looking for some advice and wise words because I think I am loosing my sanity... Quick background info: We are both in our early 30's, working, and living together. Dating for 1 year and 7 months. I am a foreigner in the country of my current residence. Some time ago we started talking about plans for the future: when I will be done with my current job assignment, I want to move back closer to my country of origin and he likes the idea and wanted to move with me as well (I was clear about that early in our dating stage). We also started talking about getting married and wanted to have kids. Some time ago as well we looked for the ring as well, he ordered a ring sizer to see what fits me. Onto a current issue: I was kind of expecting him proposing on Valentine's Day - that did not happen. He even didn't plan any date, we had some plans but he cancelled saying that we should celebrate some other day, because I look exhausted from work (I was) and he will plan something special (never did). Also around this time we found out my boyfriend has health issues - he will probably require surgery (already had minor one) and a long, long recovery time. Because he is unable to drive to work, he partially works at home and because of his condition, I take care of him and the household - all the cooking, grocery shopping, cleaning, but also helping him a bit with hygiene, medications etc. And this is just the beginning, I am bracing myself to be a full time care giver (and I will do it because I love him). Recently, we had a little bit of an argument when while watching some romantic trash tv show I said something like "well, at least they are engaged". I already apologized for making the drama. And what he said killed me a little bit inside. He said he doesn't want to get engaged, because he thinks right now it is not a good time with his issues happening. Not gonna lie - I was hurt. Every day he says he loves me and thanks me for what I am doing, but I can't shake the feeling of: 1) There has been already few other situations he could propose, 2) I thought if life throws a huge crap at you like health issues, that is exactly the time you should commit! I feel terrible for feeling like this to be honest. There is part of me thinking I am good enough only to cook and clean and he will actually never propose. I already decided I won't be moving closer to my country when I planned just to stay and take care of him. Am I overreacting? Does he even want to get married? Or I should be more graceful and gentle about this whole situation? To be honest, I never expected a huge event, even a ring (!), just a simple question of "will you marry me". And this is killing me right now... I will appreciate any insight and advice...