Recently my ex finds me to apologize for the improper breakup she did to us few years back. She mention to me that only recently she found out that she was wrong and wanted to apologize properly. We meet up and she told me that she was in really bad depression during those few years back. Only recently she feels like she's slightly healed from it . I was also impatient during that time and i ask her if she's okay if she were to give us both 2nd chance to get back together and to which i'm surprised that she said yes.
things was great at first, but i gradually realize that i need to meet up with her expectation, she asked me to change some of my behaviors that she didn't like and i agreed. At first things was going slow and steady, she asked if we're going too fast and which i replied a bit. She told me if we can go a bit slower in our relationship and i agreed. I tend to buy her stuff that she posted online, but she told she was happy and i bought her the stuff but she's happier if she buy it herself. Not denying the fact that i was really hurt when she said that. To one point in our relationship, she suddenly cried and doubt herself and said by giving us the 2nd change was worth it or not. She also told me that she cant reciprocate my feelings for her as i told her I'm deeply in love with her. She said i might be at 100% but she's only at 10%. She asked me if i can wait for her to be ready to love me fully and which i replied yes.
After that, few days gone pass and she gradually seems distance. She didn't message me as much and my gut feeling is telling me something is wrong. I meet her few days after and i tried to hold her hands but she seems distance and not happy. I asked her what's wrong and she said you remember the other we talked about giving us the 2nd chance was a good choice or not? i replied yes and she said she have an answer for that which explains her being distance from me
Few days after, we meet up and i told her that this few days I've been thinking a lot and i apologize for not being able to treating her better, and all i wish is for her to be happy and i hope to fix whichever problems that comes at us. Her reply was that she was happy during this few months that we're together. She enjoyed it but she apologies because she shouldn't have jump into a relationship with me if she wasn't ready and properly healed from her depression and anxiety. She was being honest to me that all she wanted that time was to experience love and the feeling of getting loved by somebody. Now that the feeling gradually lost, she said its better to end the relationship because mainly she's not ready and her gut feeling told her this is the best choice.
Before we go, she told me not to wait for her anymore because after this she will properly move on and told me i deserve better. I replied her with i cant promise that, but i wish you the best and let God decide our fate.
Please help, i need some advice and insight about this