So it’s been a little over a year now since me and my ex girlfriend broke up. It was honestly the only relationship I’ve been in that I felt completely comfortable in and truly enjoyed. every second was amazing with her at the time. Even she seemed really invested both emotionally, physically, you name it.
But, obviously since I’m here, we split. It was rough but I’ve worked my best to get out of being bummed about it as best I could.
(As a “quick” side not it wasn’t over anything bad. But “quickly” put it was more about her being bi and wanting to explore that side more and her ending up in a relationship with a girl for the first time a few months later. I’m a guy by the way. She initiated the split but for a long time she would still text me at random times and she still follows me and my family on social media. She even still follows me on a more private account she only follows close friends on. However I don’t follow her and I haven’t even been on anything really as I don’t use mine much anyway. I did notice at the time when I did she started posting more, with the girl too, when she didn’t ever really post stuff like that. Her social media presence changed a bit And I go on here n there and she’ll still randomly reply or just straight up dm me but I just end up ignoring them. She’ll even text about random stuff while she’s still with this girl at random hours still and I do just ignore it all since I’m trying to just move on AND respect her new relationship.)
so with all that said, in the past year I’ve picked up new hobbies and tried to hang with friends more as best I could, given the pandemic, while also looking up legitimate ways to get me out of the funk. Fast forward to now I’m doing alright and these days I’m not really dating and I’ll be having great days! But then out of no where I can’t help but start thinking of her or my favorite moments with her just when I thought I was doing good! I get maybe subconsciously maybe I do still miss us but I’m really just trying to forget and move on. It’s just hard when those memories randomly come up and I kind of get in a less pleasant mood too.
I don’t follow her social media anymore, not sure if she’s noticed, and I’ve got rid of things or ties to the relationship even.
Im just here wondering why I have those random thoughts and feel like *** randomly when I’ve done pretty well to move on...or maybe I haven’t?
any insight is appreciated. Thank you.
