Will2080

Yes, it's only 3 days since the message of the separation.

The pain and sadness become more and more each day pass.

I don't know what I should do.

Everyday it's just crying my time away.

I know and I agree with the separation but it's very pain.

Married for 3 years and know each other for 8 years.

I know we both are having depression and under medication, I know alot of advices seem so ideal initially that giving each other space is the best solution.

I am not getting any better.

Was off the medication for one week and now I have to be back to medication again.

Yes, I wanted to pretend as if I am strong to see you walk away but deep down in me, I am crying so hard that I wish I can turn back whatever had happen.

Neither both of us planned for this.

I know that's nothing I can do anything about it anymore but to let you go.

I really wish I can be independent like you.

You are everything to me, I know I have not been able to be myself due to my chronic illness for the past 5 months but we are both trying.

Now you have snapped and walk away to heal yourself which is not wrong.

I am still trying to find my strength to walk away.

I really love you alot.

I really can't live my day like this which I know my depression will only worsen my health.

I tried everything I can to avoid this separation and maybe not hard enough.

I know I was not treating you well enough too.

We know we both hurt us with words. But that's not in the right state of our mind.

Now I strongly can understand why you will wake up in the middle of the night having cold sweat and cry.

I guess it's my karma.

I am having this now everyday.

I know you need your space without me.

It's pain. Very pain.

I don't know if I can cope with for how long.

I don't wanna go take the medication again.

What should I do?

I have no interests in anything for now.

I know the people beside are worry for me but I feel like hiding away from everything.