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Just a little update, don't know if anyone cares but I like to keep it as a "journal". She later spicified that it was indeed because I waited too long to make a move after I told her she doesn't need to sugarcoat anything. The first day after was terrible, I was switching between sadness, anger and laughing. I downloaded a dating app to think about something else and give myself a new perspective (not really expecting anything just to talk to someone new for now). Also I contacted a friend who I didnt talk to for years and I didnt even know why because we got along well. I got few matches on the app one of them was a girl I talked to on the same app long time ago. And the friend actually told me she wanted to contact me as well. And both of them asked me if I want to go out. I'm not expecting anything but will see how it goes. So, even if it still hurts when I remember all the nice moment, I feel much better now when I feel there is someone who might appreciate me. Also, knowing what I did wrong, I now know better not to mess up so badly next time.

Thanks for all your support and advices, on one hand I feel sad about it on the other, it is kind of a relief to know what's going on. I hope I'll get over it soon

Okay, so we had a talk after that and she basically told me she can't see me as anything else than a friend, so I guess that's it

So we met but I don't think it helped in any way, it al went well but we were there with my best friend and her best friend (who are dating and introduced us in the first place) and she hadn't seen her in a long time as well so they talked a lot which I totally understand but we didn't have any time to spend just on our own. I was redy to give her a kiss but they were standing next to us. So I know she still cares about me in some way but im still confused

Little update: she asked me herself that she finally has a day off and asked me to meet tomorrow so we will see each other. Don't know if it's gonna be just two of us or other friends but she still wants to see me at least. I will see how it goes

In this area, I kinda do, and I know that's probably what caused this situation and now I'm afraid I won't have a chance to make it up

She was going back and forth from city where both live to a city where she goes to school. She left the school city so she's actually moving closer. We didn't make out but until march we met almost every week some time a bit more sometimes a bit less frequently and in case who initiated the meetups it was about the same on both sides.

I told about how I won tickets to a movie theater at work and Id like to go with her she said she would be glad to join me but it was her last day in her college dorm she told me how sad she was about it so I didn't push her into anything, that's also why I don't wanna jump into conclusions as she always communicated less when she was not feeling well but this time it's for much longer

We were supposed to meet last week but she had to go to work, I asked her once again this week ans she said she would like to meet but we didn't set up any specific time. I will try to bring it up again.

I met her (F25) through my friend's girlfriend who introduced us last September. First we were meeting when out. with friends and we got along really well. Then we met two times on our own to a concert and a breakfast, started texting every day and one time even my friends gf told me she told her she liked me. Then during January, she had a lot of exams and we saw each other less frequently but during february and march we went on a few dates, concerts and she even got me a quite expensive gift for brithday which totally shocked me. I sent her flowers for Valentines (shes in a different city to finish her school during week) she said she loved it. We cuddled a lot, had great time together and it felt obvious we really like each other but it didn't go any further. I started overthinking how to tell her how I feel about her, waiting for the "right time" but never actally did which I now regret. I never felt so good with anyone in years and my feelings towards her are stronger and stronger. Fast forward to April, she''s going tough times now, she finishes her master degree, will move out of the city she goes to school to, leaving her friend behind. We haven''t seen each other in a month as she spends most of time working on her thesis or at school. We still text each other almost every day and I try to be as supportive in this situation and totally understand she doesn''t have that much time now, with a lot of things going on in her life so it's understandable she takes longer to respond. However, I feel like now we are growing apart because of that and I still think about how I missed my chance when I had it and now it's too late. Sometimes when we text now it sometimes feels like I''m bothering her (but all the reasons why could just be caused by her situation right now and different priorities so it just might be me overthinking everything once again) 'I feel like can''t hold it in anymore and want to tell or at least text her about my full feeling but with everything going on in her life right now, it just doesn't feel right to put her under more pressure. I''m. thinking of just waiting after the hardest parts are over and then tell her and see how she responds but that could take few motnhs or step back with communicating until then but that would make it look like I stopped caring about her which just isn''t true.