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My son just told me that he had to do an essay about a person who made an major impact in his life and begin it with a quote. He used this from the Edward Sharpe song Home. Oh, home, let me come home

Home is whenever I'm with you

Oh, home, let me come home

Home is wherever I'm with you. Yuo, I cried.

Just saw Barenaked Ladies this week on a whim. Third time seeing them and had a blast. I have always enjoyed both their playful side and sad sides. I have been listening on and off all week after such a great show and just caught Call and Answer (one song I was not familiar with) and WOW. I cried remembering all of the forgiving and second, third, fourth, etc chances i gave to my exH until I reached my breaking point after too many broken promises. I cried not for him or our relationship, but for how untrue I was to myself.

I think it's getting to the point

Where I can be myself again

I think it's getting to the point

Where we have almost made amends

I think it's the getting to the point

That is the hardest part

And if you call, I will answer

And if you fall, I'll pick you up

And if you court this disaster

I'll point you home

I'll point you home

You think I only think about you

When we're both in the same room

You think I'm only here to witness

The remains of love exhumed

You think we're here to play

A game of who loves more than whom

And if you call, I will answer

And if you fall, I'll pick you up

And if you court this disaster

You think it's only fair to do what's best for

You and you alone

You think it's only fair to do the same to me

When you're not home

I think it's time to make this something that is

More than only fair

So if you call, I will answer

And if you fall, I'll pick you up

And if you court this disaster

I'll point you home

But I'm warning you, don't ever do

Those crazy, messed-up things that you do

If you ever do

I promise you I'll be the first to crucify you

Now it's time to prove that you've come back here to rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild

Rebuild, oh

PP - Thank you for sharing. So glad to hear that your dad got sober. It is a horrible disease. I am happy for my kids that my ex got clean. Happy fathers day to your dad in heaven.

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The Scientist

...Nobody said it was easy

It's such a shame for us to part

Nobody said it was easy

No one ever said it would be this hard

just heard this one and forgot how sad it is

PP, thanks for all of those. I am a late comer to Eric Church and agree 100%.

Wow PP. Dealing with the same issue with my mom. Thank you for that.

 

this one is very poignant to me lately

 

 

How Not To

 

Dan + Shay

 

I can honestly understand why it's over

I can go through the motions of walking away

I can give you the key and take my things back

I can find plenty things to fill my days

 

But I don't know how not to think about you

When it's late at night and crying

And I know that I ought to be the one who is strong and just moves on

But I probably turn down your road, knock-knock on your door

Fall back in your arms, wake up in the morning

Hating myself for the way that I can't help the way I still want you

I just don't know how not to, how not to, how not to

I just don't know how not to, how not to, how not to

 

You're like second nature, baby, you're just like breathin'

A melody that you hear and you can't forget

The time goes by and I still need you

Yeah, you were at the heartbreak of no regret

 

But I don't know how not to think about you

When it's late at night and crying

And I know that I ought to be the one who is strong and just moves on

But I probably turn down your road, knock-knock on your door

Fall back in your arms, wake up in the morning

Hating myself for the way that I can't help the way I still want you

I just don't know how not to, how not to, how not to

I just don't know how not to, how not to, how not to

 

I don't know how not to think about you

When it's late at night and crying

But I know that I ought to be the one who's strong and just moves on

But I probably turn down your road, knock-knock on your door

Fall back in your arms, wake up in the morning

Hating myself for the way that I can't help the way I still want you

I just don't know how not to, how not to, how not to

I just don't know how not to, how not to, how not to

Oh wow Reinvent. That is a good one.

awwww, he is beautiful.

I am back to considering a kitten. . again.

 

It's been almost 6 weeks since I lost Xena and Macy isn't doing much better.

She lives in my room and mostly under my bed or in my closet. I can get her to come downstairs when I am home.

But it's typically only for brief period of time before she bolts back upstairs.

 

Even my son's presence bugs her and he's been there off and on for years.

 

I have housekeeper every other Friday.

I leave the closet door cracked open because I know she'll hide in there while the housekeeper is there.

Last Friday I came home and as usual, I go upstairs to find Macy. She's in my closet, I pick her and I feel something warm and wet.

I smell my arm and it's urine! The poor thing had apparently been in there all day, too afraid to go downstairs to use the litter box.

I guess just picking her up squeezed it out of her. It makes me sad for her.

My cat's have never had an accident of any kind, so this is totally not like her. I now have litter box upstairs.

Not that she's using it mind you. . She scampers around in it like its a toy box or something.

 

Xena was the alpha cat and Macy was her shadow. Without her Macy is just really insecure. I don't have faith that will change.

 

So . .there is another kitten I have found on the internet who is in foster care. I can see him tomorrow.

Still on the fence and withholding a decision until I see him.

J lost his girl of 21 years last month right after we came home from vacation. He will not even discuss another kitten. He says he will know when the time is right. So will you. Macy is still grieving. Poor baby.

The Smiths are another go to

There's a club, if you'd like to go

You could meet somebody who really loves you

So you go and you stand on your own

And you leave on your own

And you go home and you cry

And you want to die

When you say it's gonna happen now

When exactly do you mean?

See I've already waited too long

And all my hope is gone

Wow Reinvent

You roll out of bed and down on your knees

And for a moment you can hardly breathe

I remember that feeling - ouch

Love this song

I think most anything Chris Cornell wrote is pretty rough.

This is the song that wrecks me most. It's been 4 years now since I lost my fiance in a car accident. I was in Afghanistan when I got the news. I stayed drunk for a solid month but I finally picked myself back up. I felt like this song was written for me. Now, I'm happy again and in a relationship with the perfect woman. It's hard to imagine finding perfection once much less but twice I am one lucky SOB...

 

Grace is Gone by Dave Matthews

 

 

Neon shines through smokey eyes tonight

It's 2 a.m. I'm drunk again

And it's heavy on my mind

 

I could never love again

So much as I love you

Where you end, where I begin

Is like a river running through

 

Take my eyes, take my heart

I need them no more

If never again I fall upon the one I so adore

 

(Chorus)

Excuse me please, one more drink

Could you make it strong

Cause I don't need to think

She broke my heart

My grace is gone

One more drink and I'll move on

 

One drink to remember

Then another to forget

How could I ever dream to find

Sweet love like you again

One drink to remember

Then another to forget

 

Excuse me please, one more drink

Could you make it strong

Cause I don't need to think

She broke my heart

My grace is gone

One more drink and I'll move on

One more drink and I'll be gone

 

You think of things impossible

Then the sun refuse to shine

I walk with you beside me

Your cold hand lay in mine

 

Excuse me please, one more drink

Could you make it strong

Cause I don't need to think

She broke my heart

My grace is gone

One more drink and I'll go

Excuse me please, one more drink

Could you make it strong

Cause I don't need to think

She broke my heart

My grace is gone

One more drink and I'll move on

One more drink and I'll be gone

One more drink my grace is gone

I'll never hear this song the same way again. Thank you for sharing.

Brave is hard for me to listen to these days. A good friend's son was struggling with his sexuality but would not come out to his very religious dad. I gave him Sara's CD and a card with the note "Innocence, your history of silence

Won't do you any good

Did you think it would?

Let your words be anything but empty

Why don't you tell them the truth?" The young man never came to terms with being gay and committed suicide the day before his 18th birthday.

I'm loving these and agree about context. I also think there are other factors. Loved Cleopatra and then saw the video. The "love of her life" took on new meaning, especially to me having two sons.

Oohhh yes, heartbreaking.

I live and breathe music, but am especially moved by the perfectly phrased pared down lyric that cuts right to the bone. Current best example I can give is is Little Bit of Everything by Dawes. What song lyrics do it for you and why?

I am relatively new here, but I know that in my relationships, my boundaries are often too squishy when my SO has many traits I respect. I am struggling with that now. Working with therapist on firming them up, , being true to myself and asking for what I need in the relationship. That is a big one for me.

This is heartbreaking and strong and beautiful all at the same time. It made me cry.

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