bluekb

I feel exactly the same way *hugs to you*

OK - I had to turn off my messenger - he keeps texting (not about relationship stuff) and I keep responding. I just can't see the texts anymore. Hopefully tomorrow will truly be day 1

coldmoon - joining you - I didn't even make a few hours. He called and I picked up without even thinking about it - bad bad move, pointless conversation. Starting again.

This is not my fault - I responded to a text. Help me stop contact!!!!! I am failing miserably.

coldmoon - joining you - I didn't even make a few hours. He called and I picked up without even thinking about it - bad bad move, pointless conversation. Starting again.

Back to day 1 again. I checked out his facebook page - couldn't stop myself. Luckily nothing new on it but I need to get a handle.

Day 2 - The no contact is messing with me. There is no happy ending here. He doesn't want me back. Even if he did I could never trust him again. Everything has changed. Talk to him and it crushes me. Don't talk to him and it crushes me. I'll continue on the NC path. No point to anything else.

Back to day 1 - my NC went down in a flaming heap yesterday when he left me a message saying he was feeling really sad and just wanted to talk to someone, had been thinking of all the times we had. I stupidly called back, he didn't answer, he never called back. I texted and he replied that he was fine now. Well gee thanks - YOU DUMPED ME - leave me alone. This time it's NC for real. I feel like more crap after getting his answer and that's how it's always going to be.

Day 2

The social media thing is hard, if anything makes me fail it's going to be that. I'm angry that I had to force the no contact when I was the one who got dumped. In general I feel less stress because I don't have to worry about texts popping up on my computer - we will see how the day goes.

Day 1

I work with my ex so I have requested all communication go through a project management system. He was texting and calling me every day and I have asked this to stop. I am taking this challenge because every time I have contact with him I come out feeling lower then low. He dumped me. It's over. I have to accept this and move on with my life. I plan on filling my life up rather then dwelling on everything. I don't think I could have saved our relationship even if I knew we were in trouble to this extent. I just want to scream at him though - i hate you i hate you i hate you i love you. you jerk. but instead I will keep quiet and begin healing.