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My heart is burning it's hard to go to bed with out you

Bugger me i have been so stuiped and i see this now not only befor our BU and it was even worse after our BU but todays therapy meet made so much sense i really hope you decide to come next time and ill give more then half a hours notice next time i am really looking forward to seeing the boys tomorrow and thank you for letting me have them

I am so confused today

I am not depressed just confussed

I know you are not a quiter

But yet you gave up on me so easy after all we have been through

Dont let my depressen beat you becouse i am not going to let it beat me

I was the one with the desease but yous where the ones suffering please dont give up on us

I think i know why its easyer for you but ill have a gess and say you havent been alone for weeks but mabe monthes or even years

You and the boys dont have to be victems as well.

I know we cant fix this today, tomorrow, next month or even next year

Just like water under the brige yesterday has gone we cant tell what the future holds for us

Things are going to change bub youll see

Come back please this is killing me

I miss you and the kids so much

Hey bub sorry i text you last night

Bub i fix that door yesterday that i said ill fix on my RnR

Had a really good time in bali wish you and our boys where there to enjoy with me you know ill love you and allways will

Day 6

So hard not to call or text just spont 6 days in bali but so it was easy now that iam home so dam hard are well day 7 tomorrow 👍👍

Ps i miss you bub

Bub its been 6 weeks now and i miss you more then ever i know it was hard for you but think of all the good times we had please dont throw away 13 years that we had togeather i love you so much i know you cant see it now i dont and to be up set in front of you i know that is not what you whant to see in me but i miss you and the boys so much ill allsays love you and you know that night my love and sleep tight