A year and half ago I moved from New Orleans to Lexington, KY. It had always been my dream to live in New Orleans, and I realized that dream but after 14 years of trauma and stress brought about by the reality of the living in the city, my stress level was out of control. I had an opportunity to move to Lexington, where I have some seriously dysfunctional family, and a guy that I truly love.
But...I don't love him as much as I miss and love New Orleans. I wake up every morning and the first thought that goes through my mind is "I want to go home. I miss it so much". Throughout the day, a thought will randomly pop into my head "OF COURSE you'll live in New Orleans again! You're not going to spend the rest of your life here!" I'm so afraid that I might.
Things have been awful here. I had a falling out with my dysfunctional family a few months after I moved here (oh, yeah, now I remember! THAT'S why I originally moved away years ago!), I lost my job after a year and I haven't made any friends. I used to spend all my spare time with my boyfriend, but he's been getting on my nerves lately, so I've been pulling away and spending less time with him.
Some really bad things had happened to me in New Orleans in the couple of years before I decided to move, and I think I didn't give myself time to heal. That, together with my reconnection with my boyfriend in Lexington, caused me to think I should leave. I made a mistake.
I think I'd better go back. Yes, it will be hard. I don't have a job waiting for me and the living situation there is rough. But my heart is aching.
I need advice, peeps. I don't want to make another life altering mistake.
