Kirstya59

Guys i need help, my ex was at my work secret santa, hadnt aeen or spoke to him for 20 days and then he said he wanted me back and missed me and loved me, he kissed me an hugged me and told me it was his depression with his dads death what was messing with his ead, now i dont know where the ell i stand and im in so much pain. Knowing all that effor got wasted. And now i have to atart nc all over again. I need help guys and aupport right now

Day 22 - songs about love keep making me think of him

Day 21 - i deleted the pictures of us both off facebook today. Not too sure how i feel

Day 20 - still texting the new guy i met at my christmas party, makes me feel so much better!

Day 19 - went to my works do last nighr, was so goood!!! Really enjoyed myself! And i got a guys number who is gorgeous!!!! Still things remind me of my ex but after this weekend i feel better and more confident. He can do all the moping around now

Day 17 - went out with a male friend today and teally enjoyed myself. Helps me not to think of my ex... Then i saw my exs car outside his sister and it made me want to message him ahhhh want the pain to go

Day 16 - todays been a little easier, havnt thought as much about him. Still though i miss him and want him back. I know hes really struggling with the loss of his dad right now, and i hate that i cant be there for him. Ahwell

Day 15- another day. Another bad day which ive spent thinking about him agsin. How can he suddenly be besotted with me and then suddenly want to be friends, guess its his depression apparently he has a new number so there isnt a way i could possibly contact him now. Bet he doesnt rven give a toss about me. Oh how it happened so abruptly

Day 14 - hit the 2 weeks mark. Really struggled today.. Keep wanting to text him and i keep thinking of him. Things reminding me of him. Just wish hedd come back

Day 13 - things are changing.... And i know that its his loss..... Idiot

Day 12- had a good day at work, not thought too much of him whih is good

Day 11, i actually have had a good day. Although i think about him most times and see things that remind me of him, i managed to go to work happy and maintain it. No urge to contact him. Hope i can keep this up

Day 10. Im currently staying at my friends away from home. She has just gone to university and I am waiting to go out with lunch for her. She has my ex on facebook and i was an idiot and looked on his profile. There was nothing of interest anyway, but seeing the pictures of him still hurt me and made me miss him more wishing that I could be with him. I was so close to caving in and texting him just to tell him how much i really do love him and miss him. Wish I knew how he felt about me and the exact reason why he ended it. Our christmas work do is a day closer, so im a more stressed. I do not know whether he will be there but i dewfinately know i will bump into him at work and Im scared I may become upset as the feelings are raw and it will be the first time i see him, if he does not attend the christmas party, since NC started =( I keep tlling myself that he will not want to see me as much as i dont want to see him. hopefully he will realise how much of an idiot he is. And I will have to make sure I look super hot ha. If anyone reads this and has any advice it would be much appreciated if you would like to pm me. Thanks, feel a bit better already by posting this. Keep it up guys x

I found this. Little late, im currently on day 9 of NC, my boyfriend ended the relationship for a reason i do not know, i know he is curretly suffering from depression so i think it is related to that. Soon i am to see him at work so i am slightly worried about it