texaslove

I remember at the beginning of our relationship you told me that no mattered what happened with us that you wanted me to know how a real man should treat a lady and that it'd be a relationship I would never forget...

Well - I WILL NEVER FORGET IT thats for sure. It was some of the best times and now the worst.... I know when I dig deep that we arent meant for eachother which helps me with the break up, but I miss the good things about you, badly. I am intoxicated by the old good memories (which lasted only the first 3 months of our 8 month relationship). I loved how soft you held my hand and would kiss me on the forehead. I miss our walks on york beach and i miss your family because they were amazing (and what hurts really bad is that you flew me to VA with you to meet your family, and right now you are there visiting w/o me.. and i cant help but wonder if you brought a new girl) I felt so special being the only girl you ever brought down there to meet them, amazing, and now i wonder if they even ask you about me and what happened?! Do they care? Do youuu care?! As far as showing me what a man should treat me like, well, i think its the opposite unless you think i deserve a coldhearted emotionally unavailable man. I loved you and still do, and i believe that guy i met a year ago is still in there somewhere, but the last 4 months of our relationship and now how you are acting since the BU when we see eachothr at work the few times... you're an a**. You just pulled back, slowly stopped talking to me, then that magical Friday night two nights before you broke my heart... it was great, but you made me fall in love all over again that night and it was amaaazing, and then two nights later you say we are over. ugh!

I wana talk to you sooo badly, soooooo badly. Words cannot describe how much i wana just ask you what happened.. I hate not knowing. I know you told me that you didnt know why you felt as though you didnt really feel anything about Anything anymore and that there was nothing i could do to help you and figure it out. No answers. No closure. I'm lost. I need to be found. I need to let you go, and I don't know why I cant... sigh

AG, WHY, Why can't I just move on from you? I still check my phone constantly and look for you around town. Why.... why cant i give up the hope, I mean, dang its been 4 months... and well, you seem to be doing just fine. EW

AG... you break me down each day I see you here at work. I am on vacation from grad school, and this, this is what I come home to? I need to work to make money, so I have to be here, but walking past you in the hall and being ignored as if I am a speck of dust is so hurtful. Its been 4 months NC other than when I said hi 2 months ago when i was here working and now you still cant get over yourself and say hello to me... i dont understand

"trying to make it work but man these times are hard... dont give up on me baby...."

Why can't I just forget you as easily as you have forgotten me? As much as I want to admit you are a coward and a jerk for the way you have been treating me as of late, the great times we've had still outweigh the bad ones, and I think about how simple it could have been to mend our relationship. But I'm just not important enough to you to do that. And that hurts more than anything.

yeah... sometimes we think it can be worked out.. and for some reason they choose to walk away- sucks, if they love us, it should be worth it

Today, my family left to go back to Texas, I am sad... the only person I want and need is you.. i need that hug and that "its ok" speech. I miss you.. but you left, you quit us, you didn't love me more than your work to give me the time of day, I will just wait until the day I am happy again.. and I have a man who will love me for me and be my best friend, not just a good looking smart man, but actually have a fun personality

i win, you lose.

i hate crying at work... i hate that i cannot escape you... i pray every night for the strength to move on.... and i will continue to pray for you in hopes you will straighten out your life and be happy someday.... i do truly care about your well being, and even though you don't care about me, i cannot be something i am not... al my love and prayers

I watched an episode of Boston Legal today and it made me miss you, but I made it. This show is amazing, but what made it amazing was the fact that you shared it with me.

 

I will never look at Alan Shore or Denny Crane without thinking about us watching on the couch in your apartment.

 

Miss you.

Oh man, my ex and I used to watch this show together all the time. I love Alan Shore haha. Believe me, it gets easier. I am just now able to watch "big Bang Theory" and "Psych" because those were shows he and I used to watch together. Boston Legal is fun no matter who you are watching it with, but I definitely understand!! We had watched all seasons of BL!!

So guess what babbbee? A guy at my work is flirting with me nonstop. He has a great face and an amazing body, not to mention his fun personality. It hasnt been quite two months since you left, but why should I wait around for you to come back. I am moving on. I have no idea what this will turn out like, but I am interested in finding out. He seems really great and we are getting together this weekend to hangout outside of work! I HAVENT STOPPED SMILING IN TWO WEEKS. Thank you for freeing me.

I still miss you, very very much, but I am not crying everyday .... I am more confident in myself. I will get thruh this

I was strong earlier, I am starting to break down. I have only 30 minutes left of work and then I will cry my eyes out. You have done this to me. I know I had my faults in the relationship but I thought you adored and loved me.

Today marks one month since you told me we were breaking up. How are you doing?! I truly hope you miss me as much as I miss you. I want you to come back to me, not to get back together, but so I can tell you how much you devastated my life and broke up heart. I want to tell you that I think you are a selfish coward. If you felt this way for "awhile" why didn't you tell me there was a problem. Why not ease it in instead of making plans for that week and then breaking up with me.

I miss your family. I miss your smile. I miss our games we played. I miss watch big bang with you and singing along. I don't miss your job. I don't miss your roommates. I don't miss you alwayssss texting me instead of calling (even thoh I asked for you to call). I don't miss your messy room. All in all though, I miss you.... I thought your heart was real. I believed that you loved me more than I even loved myself. You always cared so much and did so many great things to make me happy. I thought that you were secretly paying for the ring we picked out. Where did I go wrong? What did I do to make you hate me and stop loving me? How can you just go on with your life as if I was never part of it?!

WHY