OccultFigurine

Nice of you to let me know that you think of me every day.

What I want to know is what about all those times you should have thinking about me when we were a couple? What about all those times you denied I even existed? What about those times you were being nasty about me to your friends? It's those times that count, and you failed epically.What do you hope to gain by telling you that you miss me and that you love me? Do you think I will just forget everything you did to me?

Somtimes I wish I could forgive you,that I could take you back. But I know that I can't ,and that was all your doing.

Arghh! Stop emailing me!

You lost the right to ask how me and the kids are doing when you decided I wasn't good enough for you-in fact you never acted like I was good enough, so as far as I'm concerned, you never HAD that right.

You're not going to 'trick' me into breaking NC either by sending me innane little comments.....I just *know* you're relying on me being too polite to ignore it- funny that when you have no manners whatsoever.

You've stopped contacting me....I guess thats all I was worth, a few drunken texts and emails.

I suppose I should be thankful really, I don't want you around me any more, so any contact you make now is pointless

(doesn't change the fact that it hurts that I meant so little to you)

You couldn't even show me the basic respect that one human being shows to another.

Did you think that texting me banalities about our local supermarket is going to make me forget that? Or did you think that I would reply out of politeness?

It won't work this time.

Even though I never plan to speak to you again.....

The childish ,foot-stamping part of me really asks why, if you ever cared, if I got it all wrong, if I was being paranoid.....why aren't you here telling me that you love me, that I got it all wrong?

But my logical side knows why...because you were caught, because I finally found out how weak and shallow you are...and I bet you're ashamed,I bet you're disgusted with yourself right now. I would be too.

Thats all

Thanks for waking me up at 4am with your (I assume drunken) phonecall.

I didn't answer because I'm moving on and trying to forget you- there really is nothing to talk about. Can't you just delete my number or something??

I hate you right now, but I know I won't forever, because I happen to be a nice person (something I know now that you never were)

I just want to say that even when I'm not angry with you any more, somewhere down the line, when I realise that you probably didn't hurt me out of malice, but just because you were weak, I will never have you in my life again, because I have no time for people of your sort.

Good luck in your shallow little life, I hope you made the right choice.

(Wow, I really am angry, didn't realise how much until I typed this!)

OccultFigurine