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don't meet up with her. what happened to NC? Just leave her in the past. she's possibly with another man. why do you want to keep torturing yourself and setting yourself so far back... you only have to start it all over again.

Should i not even work out what she wants from me? this need she has to meet up with me; if that is for the purpose of starting a friendship again, then i need to know that's what she wants. If not, then she is still unable to tell me where i stand, and she will have to accept my need for distance

Day 2

She is away this weekend in Sardinia

she is probably still with her new guy. She wants to meet up when she gets back from the weekend. I dont think i should. I am not over her

I cant believe after 5 months of being apart i am still so weak, so unchanged

Day 1 (still)

just got a call from her

she wanted me to do a job for her (i used to work for the company she now works for)

I said i couldnt, which is true. We then got into a convo about how busy my life is, found out she was going to sardinia for a Hen party this weekend. Told her to have a lovely time, kept everything very friendly. Did also ask her if she felt that there were things still left unsaid between us. She said of course there were, but couldnt possibly start talking about it now. Ended with wishing well etc. No mention about her new boyfriend. She did ask whether I had been seeing anyone. I told her it is hard to like new girls when i compare them to her all the time. Basically i probably really screwed up. I have run out of ways to defend myself

Day 1

NC started a few weeks ago

Broke last week when she called about something unimportant. I didnt answer but called back later having obsessed all day about what it might be, i called back

Saw her couple of days ago cycling home but she didnt see me and I didnt bother trying.

I still love her

she is with someone else (i think)