Lyndon76

Your points on Rain Man are right on. You make lots of sense. But I feel that you have no real suicidal impulses at all. You are just pissed because you have everthing you thought you wanted and that it will all end soon. You dont want suicide. You want immortallity.... tell me im wrong

Well it might not be the most comforting advice. But the only reason I havnt ended my life is just because I dont know whats next. the way I look at it is. Which is worse,, total nothingness,and blackness or this miserable existence I can call my life. I mean when I get real close to ending it all I think to myself. Would I rather live and suffer and feel things or die and feel and be nothing. The nothingness of death is the only thing that prevents me from suicide. And the not no ing of after life is the only thing that prevents me from murder. I have no conscious, I dont want to live, but I dont want to become nothing.