Crows

Still sailing through fairly well!

I think i'm at 33 or 34 now.

2 days ago would have been our one year... that sucked a bit becuase I know she started dating this new guy on the same day to forget me.

I honestly lost count....

I lost count when she called on friday and i said "nope" when she wanted to talk and hung up.

I think it or.. weould be around 30 days now.

I guess NC ended for me. I had unblocked her to test my own strengh.. i'm not even sure if this counts as contact though.

she comes on msn... and says "hey"

I say nothing.. ten minutes later she says "wanna talk?"

5 minutes later I said

"nope"

She says "k.. sorry" and loggs off

I FEEL SO GOOD!!!!

Day 25? I think? GOod sign. It's been a long time and boy do I feel good.

day 24 * * * * * es.

Feeling amazing!

Day 23.

I can't believe the days and how fast they are going now! i feel great about that whole situation! My attention continues to be turned to this new girl.

She cannot get over this guy that's been flakey to her forever. I told her I Have feelings for her and continue to do so.

She sends me signals that she is attracted to me possibly.

Last night she came over to watch a movie, we drank beer and watched american gangster. She cuddled close to me. I'm not being too aggressive with her becuase A- I dont know how she feels about me and B- I don't want to scare her if she has no feelings.

She put her head on my shoulder and fell asleep.. as well when she cuddles close to me her bare legs were basically on me, so I rested my hand there and kinda played with her socks and her leg (UGH PATHETIC I KNOW) BUT everyone on here knows just as well as I that it's an art form , to try and get in there for the first time. She didn't move for about 45 minutes... so she wasn't uncomfertable with it.. I hope..........

Day 21...

With every passing day, my thoughts of her grow more distance and less emotional. I am healing, and healing fast. I feel fantastic!

Dya 20...

tired.........and drunk.,

Day 19

Feelin great!

Told the girl ive been seing I like her last night.. it was awkward. The guy she likes is going away to vegas for a month and shes fed up with him.

The girl Im seeing wnats to go on a trip with me. WEl see what happens

Im just really glad I told her how I felt.

Day 18... i have her unblocked and looking at her name online.. I have no urge to talk to her, nor does it affect me at all.

Day 17. REcord day for me.

Also I went out with the girl again... my god women confuse me.,... she talks about this other guy shes hanging out and how frustrating he is.. then she asks for my opinion on what he's thinking. She seems not interested in me sometimes, then we go outside, and shes puting her arm around my arm, puting her hand on my leg... ughhhhhhhhhhhh

i dont know what to do

Nearing the end of day 16.. and man I feel pretty good! Besides the waiting game with the new girl, I love not talking to my ex. SHe's a grade A * * * * * ! I LOVE IT!

Day 16. This ties the record for the longest time. The last time this was achieved was in october!

Im feelin pretty damn good right now!

This sucks

 

My ex wants me back....and then she doesnt. Its like up and down all the time.

Think i need proper NC for myself.... but its like she admitted that she doesnt know where we are and that shes confused.

 

I was doing well before she starting messing with me...that the worst thing.

Alright... THis just happened to me two weeks ago. And I gor BUUURNED.

She was coming on to me, wanting to get back, then she was with this new guy all of the suden and disappeared.

My advice? CUt her off, Don't initiate anything, and if she initiates anything... be short, and concise. She's probably confused. Let her be, and let your heart come back down to earth.. protect it.

Trust me. I deleted her, cut her off from everything for 14 days now and I feel the best ive felt in 6 months.

Day 14.

Two days away from my record.

No signs of her contacting at all.

I feel so liberated and so much weight is off me!

Day 13.

Almost the longest ive ever. been. I feel the best ive ever felt since this breakup. I think less and less about her, and i'm optimistic something might happen with the new girl im seeing

Day 12.

Doing well. I find myself thinking less and less about her! I LOVE IT!

But still worry about this other girl I really hope works out with us

Day 11.

Doing very well. I unblocked and she came online last night, I didn't bite, she went off and on a couple times then off again. It felt great.. I had zero urge to talk to her!

Doing fantastic!

Now I just want this little love triangle i'm in to work out... ughhhhh

Day 10 continued.....

I unblocked my ex a while ago to see my strenght as lil bear did as well.

Well I was strong. She came online tonight, offline and online a few times. I say nothing toher and I felt fantastic.

Day 10 i believe...

doing fine with the ex situation.. but the girl im interested in and was flirting with alot last night and I think she may have itnerest in me.. well the bum she went on 3 dates with doesn't contact her much, and he jus ttexted her.. ugh.. she's gonna get reeled back in. That guy seems like such a bum.

Day 10.

My last record was 16 days broken by her. This time I don't think it will be broken. I can concievably see this going for months maybe even ever.

I feel good. I went out lat night with my good buddy, we drank some beer and i fell asleep on the bus and misse dmy stop by about half an hour and I ended up in the suburbs! haha! The bus driver dorve me all the wya home though! What a guy!

My ex only blocks me when I stop initiating contact becuse she can't take me ignoring her.

SHe didn't block me.. I didn't block her.. she came online 2-3 times, I said nothing, and she eventually blocked me.

Day 9.

I went on a "date" last night. Really cool girl. I hope we hang out again soon.

She was seeing this other guy who doesnt get back to her.. so im crossing my fingers.

Day 8-

I had a few moments of sadness today. The weather here in Vancouver turned absolutely beautiful. 15 degrees celcius and bright sun.. this was the weather we had our first dates on. You can sense spring around the corner and it just has that energy in it.. .. I'm lonely.

As for the situation. She is in another relationship and at least she is showing she is this time instead of me being an ass for months not knowing she had a bf.

THis may be the best thing to happen for both of us. THis will really be our time to heal. We never really got it.

She has tried to mask and forget me, but it kind of makes me feel good that she's struggling to find ways to forget about me.

She won't forget about me.

Day 7:

Feeling ok, Not bad. I think about it but it's not unbearbly painfull like it was before when I found out she had a bf. I have a face to this guy and man is he ugly wow!

I'm guessing she's blocking me again. I have her blocked as well. We have not talked since last thursday when she cancelled valentines dinner plans.

I have to stick to this and be the better person. I will not say or do anything.