xavierw I was glued to every word of your rather large post here. I have been reading a book called "The Power of Now" and I believe there are some similarities there.
Strange thing is I understood what you are talking about to a T. I think I found out about the meaninglessness of life when I was 15 and have struggled to come to terms with life ever since. I trudge on and do my thing but I am forever battling with my mind and trying to figure out why I feel the way I do. I think you have enlightened me.
I don't see a reason to live or a point to all this yet I am not unhappy. I struggle with everything that is outside me in this world rather than a general hatred for myself. I agree that most people who aren't enlightened or don't understand this way of thinking are hard to deal with and I struggle everyday to try and understand or be understood but I hear what you are saying and I do believe there are people out there that can and will make a connection with me because they too think "deeper" and have a sense of "being".
I want to now "be" I don't want to "do" anymore.
(I don't see the a reason to live but I am not suicidal. I do not want people to mis-interpret that)
I want to kill myself - not because im unhappy
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xavierw I was glued to every word of your rather large post here. I have been reading a book called "The Power of Now" and I believe there are some similarities there.
Strange thing is I understood what you are talking about to a T. I think I found out about the meaninglessness of life when I was 15 and have struggled to come to terms with life ever since. I trudge on and do my thing but I am forever battling with my mind and trying to figure out why I feel the way I do. I think you have enlightened me.
I don't see a reason to live or a point to all this yet I am not unhappy. I struggle with everything that is outside me in this world rather than a general hatred for myself. I agree that most people who aren't enlightened or don't understand this way of thinking are hard to deal with and I struggle everyday to try and understand or be understood but I hear what you are saying and I do believe there are people out there that can and will make a connection with me because they too think "deeper" and have a sense of "being".
I want to now "be" I don't want to "do" anymore.
(I don't see the a reason to live but I am not suicidal. I do not want people to mis-interpret that)