mytruecolorschik

We are not married and we dont share any kids together we live together right now we have to keep things this way.

Hi first time here and my first post is heavy so sorry but I really need some advise. Here it goes I am a mom of 2 and I am currently in relationship with the most beutifull soul that has walked this earth he is a great man and he treats my kids like his own, problem is I am just accepting the fact that I am a lesbian. Its been very hard I have talked to him about it to some extent I told him that I didnt want to be witha man but that I really loved him and want to be with him we are just currently not having any type of physical contact none at all, but I am no fool its all gonna get to a point that we are gonna have to go our separate ways.

Right now I havent told anyone else cause I am in such a bad situation that its just not possible if I come out I would have to move away and that is not possible me being in such a bad financial situation and then the only people that are around me is his family and a couple of people I know but we are not that close me and his family is, well anyway his fam is really religious so I know that they would totaly ex me out I have no support right now none at all he doesnt say mean things or anything but is clear about not accepting gay being ok so right now I feel like I am in a box alone I am so depressed by thought of having to live in the closet for years to come and then my kids I wouldnt want them to be ridiculed.

I have got to be in the weirdest situation ever finding out that I am gay is hard but accepting it is even harder to actuallly say it is uncomfortable. I am sorry for rambling on just had so much to get of my chest. Question is what is a gay mom living with a man in a heterosexual relationship traped in the closet supposed to do.

thanx for reading my post and any advise or input.