blindreepr

it still isn't easy. Not calling her or texting her has gotten alot easier, I really don't even think about doing it because I know it would be all bad. The hard HARD HARD part is not checking up on her online. It's so easy just to type in a web address and see what is going on in her life. I will probably struggle with that for a while. Here's hoping though.

day 30! I made it.

Now to see if I can double that score, I probably won't be keeping track of it like I did up to thirty put atleast this post is dated so I can see how I am doing. Also, it's been a week since I have checked her myspace, or online blogs at all. I am going to do my best to stay away from them. They only bring me pain. So here is to my 30 day online NC challenge. Day 8!

day 29. one more day!

day 26

wow I cant believe I have made it this far

day 25

getting closer to a month, starting to think about myself more than the ex

day 24 who needs the ex? I dont.

day 23 nc, one week away from a month, I will make it!

day 23 nc

i dont even know why im counting anymore, i hope to never talk to her again, unless its her begging for me back.

day 22 nc

sometimes i feel like I want to break NC, but then I remember, what for? So she can make me feel terrible? Unattractive? Unloved and Unwanted? No thank you!

day 21 nc

weird thing happened last night, instead of dreaming about the latest ex, i dreamt about my very first ex, talk about a nightmare!

day 20 nc

it's officially been one month since the break up, I never thought that it would have lasted this long

day 19 nc

still no contact from her, thats a good thing though, it makes it easier on me to remain nc

day 18 nc, I can't believe I am almost to the 20's!

day 17 nc

I am more than halfway to 30, staying strong

day 16 nc

it's getting harder and yet its getting easier at the same time, does that make any sense??

day 15 nc

last night was tough as I knew she had plans for a date. the less I know about her the better. hopefully I can cycle back into the "I'm better off without her" phase again.

I made it two weeks! Day 14 NC It's getting easier I think.

day 13, almost two weeks now. lets get some healing goin!

day 12 nc

who needs my ex? I'm better off without her. She did me a favor by leaving me. I wish I felt this way 100%

day 11 nc

im better off without her, now i just need to convince my heart of that

day 10 of nc

She replied to a post in my livejournal, saying the she was proud of me keeping busy but she cant help but think that I am doing certain things just to prove her wrong. I'm not going to reply to her comment, I have nothing to say to her. She is putting out the bait and I'm not going to take it. She isn't there for me. I'm not going to be there for her and take every nibble that she gives me. I sincerely hope that I can forget her and move on with my life as soon as possible.

day 9 of nc

i think i'm getting better. heck, I wasnt even thinking about nc yesterday and I forgot to post my update. I finished a few projects which helped get her off my mind. Still the waking up and going to sleep alone thing sucks right now. I am concentrating on improving myself though and thats what I should be thinking about, not about her.

day 7, i made it passed thanksgiving, yay

day 6

happy thanksgiving sonia, I miss you.

day 5 begins

tomorrow is thanksgiving, lets hope I can keep it going.