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I did apologize and said it won’t happen again. She said she didn’t want an apology. There’s no much I can do. Regarding the crying - this is the first time in 8 years of experience! This has never happened to me before! I don’t even cry in my personal life. We’re all human, it’s not something you can’t control. It’s not about the camera being traumatizing. I have a skin condition and my face flares up at unexpected times. Sometimes, it’s so bad, I can’t put my camera on and don’t want to expose people to that. She’s seen me in the office with a bandaid on my face etc. This is the person reason why in my opinion is not her business.

Lol. I wasn’t crying over having my camera. You’re not getting the point of this thread.

I was the presenter of a presentation during a conference call. I was obviously doing the work given I was the one hosting the presentation.

I would appreciate some perspective. I posted about how I joined a new team a few months ago. A few days ago, I was asked to do a presentation in front of 70 people. My manager knows I’d never done this and public speaking terrifies me. Fast forward, I do the presentation and the manager wasn’t in attendance. All good. People apparently loved it. At around 5.30pm when I’m about to log off, I get a ping from my manager asking me to talk. I dial in and they go on a tangent about how multiple people ping her to tell her they did not like that I didn’t have my camera on! They said it wasn’t good, that I should have had my camera on and the team culture is one of collaboration. I explained that my camera was on and if it appeared off when I shared my screen, I apologize but I’m pretty adamant I had it on. Then she goes on a tangent saying she doesn’t want an apology and that she wants to know why my camera is occasionally off (during weekly team meetings with roughly 100 people on and where I’m not a speaker!) I said it’s for personal reasons and I shouldn’t give such justification. Then she goes on a tangent about how she’s not asking for justification. What? You just asked me ‘why’. Anyways, I apologize, say it was an oversight (even though I 100% had my camera on and maybe turned it off for a second to drink water) and she kept going on a tangent. At that point, I had enough and I started crying which she quickly gathered and she says ‘this is not a formal reprimand that will go in your performance record, if that’s what you think’ . I go silent because my anxiety went through the roof and she ends the call. Fast forward, the following day, I log in, no trace of her asking me even as much as an ‘are you OK’. Nothing. I got an email asking for a deck, nothing else. I was honestly so happy with my presentation and some people even asked me to join their project with leadership as a result of it. She tore it all apart right after. I’ve been feeling distraught ever since because I’ve been in the industry for 8 years, had disagreements with managers, but never cried in front of one and this one pushed me to tears over something so petty. I‘m genuinely contemplating resigning next week without any other job lined up because I’ve never seen this my entire career. Any advice?