I lost my bf too. 2 1/2 years ago and i feel obligated to let people that im interested in know up front so they can decide. The dating app i use still gets hits with a picture of us and explaining how i am a widow etc. but i know its just not going to get serious. I find myself lost at the idea of being alone for the rest of my life or getting to know someone telling them and then they bounce right out of my life.