maybejune

I'm sick again. I know, I know, even when we were dating, you didn't care if I felt okay for the day, then why I even think about you, useless, heartless , cold-blooded ex.

I guess after the breakup , I realized my family and so called friends suck, they are worse than him. When they let me down, I think about the second worst one

I'm sick again. I know, I know, even when we were dating, you didn't care if I felt okay for the day, then why I even think about you, useless, heartless , cold-blooded ex.

There is no reason for tears, but I cried .

There is no time to mesmerise but I missed you.

There was no commitment from you, but I still love you.

It feels worse than , because I can't just flush it away.

I showed my love to you, I showed it tooo much even though I don't think it was wrong. But after I reassured you of my love, you chose neglect, avoidance, and accusation of my 'fault'. I didn't do anything wrong, except falling in love with you.

 

I miss us, I thought I miss you, but now I think I miss the idea of loving relationship, which you never fitted in.

You treated me like one of your projects, you tried hard to hold the project, develop the project. But once you find more beneficial new project, or you are tired of current one, you get rid of it, close it off. And it is all off your shoulder, you never had a heart, even though I heard something sound like heartbeats.