Brodey

It hurts again, beautiful girl. The pain I felt after you revealed that, yes, you are dating someone, and so that yes, you did leave me to date someone else. It hurts.

 

I'm still working as hard as I can to get through everything and to be able to do something good for others. Maybe even for you.. Maybe not. I hope your new partner is making you as happy as I want you to be.

Thank you for writing this

I'm sick of not being over you. Sick of the feeling in the pit of my stomach. Sure we still talk. Sure you say you wanna be my friend. Say everything to make me feel better and to alleviate your guilt. Then when we see each other in public you can't even wave back or say hi. Cut the act. I don't need a fake friendship. I just wanted you to care as much as you've been telling me you did.

I'm unlike any woman you've ever met, unlike any ex you've ever had. I'll never be angry or resentful because you asked for what you needed. I will love you unconditionally by giving you my absence. I will listen in the future when you need me. I will create my own happiness and do my best to be happy for me. I'll give you what you need by moving on.

I can't help feeling it is totally wrong for me not to respond to your recent texts. But you know I want to hear your voice, and to see you here, and to hold your face in my hands.

 

It isn't clear to me what you are doing, what you want, or even what happened to stun you away from me. I think I know, am sure I know, and then I know that I know nothing, and can't know unless or until you tell me.

 

Your latest text to me was concise, at once a request and an order. I can't respond, because, I have no words. If I did, I would say the same to you, with love and hope.

 

I won't contact you, because I do respect that you have chosen separate life, and I understand why. I understood years ago that this might happen, and that ultimately it is for the best. For your best, if not for mine. And I will survive it; I always survive. And I manage happiness every day. It's just that for so long, that happiness was in part directly connected to you.

 

You have been and still are my favorite of all time. I dearly love you. I know you know that; never doubt it.

 

Please keep trying. I can't respond right now, because I feel confused, hurt, and low. In part because despite your absence, and my reactions to it, I still feel sure you are my one.

 

Please don't do anything that cannot be undone.

 

I am wishing you all the best, and yet feel plagued that we didn't or couldn't find a compromise.

That was really beautiful thanks for sharing I definitely felt that with my situation.

I understand you need time for you. It comforts me to know you are happy, even though it is without me. I'm fortunate we are friends. I'm thankful you're in my life. I'll always love you despite the constructs of our relationship. I wanted so badly to give you the love you wanted in your life. As time passes I can only hope you remember our love and want to try again.