I am a supervisor at a corporation over about 10 people.
My responsibility involves holding daily meetings with the team and meeting with individuals during one on one meetings when they need to be reprimanded.
In some ways I have been the best for the job, as I've developed new tracking systems of the employee's performance that has brought our team to meet standards in various areas required by our government contract. The team failed month after month before I put that together.
Problem is, I am one of the world's worst communicators. I have a "speech hesitancy" issue. I have few issues if I am relaxed or with a familiar topic. But if I am stressed (which is most of the times I have to do these meetings now), it gets really bad. I get stuck with many moments with "word retrieval" or "sentence retrieval" as I'm seeking for the next word or sentence I wanted to say. I feel so envious of people that can talk with a long clear flow without pause.
My boss has been telling me I need to work on this, and that just makes me more aware of it, and makes me more nervous and makes it worse.
He has been telling me and the two other supervisors "I may have to replace some of you! I have discussed this with my boss" He is in love with the other 2 supervisors and always complains about me. Gee, I wonder who is talking about.
Thing is, I don't think is much I can work on. When I was 7 years old I was ill with Encephalitis which is the inflammation of the active tissues of the brain caused by an infection or an autoimmune response. After being in the hospital for the month, I had to learn to speak all over again and spent a lot of time with speech therapists.
I consider myself normal, but not 100% unfortunately. I'm wondering if I should mention my past illness to my boss. I don't want to be looked at differently (not that I"m looked at great now), but I don't want to be a victim. I've never really mentioned this to anyone before.
Should I say anything?