I also called her a "racist" (once again, not to her face). Why is it toxic to call my sister a "loser" but not toxic to call her "racist"?
I have 4 jobs: truck unloader, event staff, grocery delivery and writer.
In terms of living with my Dad, I already booked a one-way to Vegas this month.
I've been seeing a psychologist for about a year and a half. I'm taking Wellbutrin mainly for anxiety but I think it helps depression too. I can't confirm whether my doctor officially sees depression as enough of a concern to consider it a diagnosis, but I think Wellbutrin helps (the dread of my current existence however makes me feel depressed, but I just believe that changing scenery is exactly what I need). Another medication I'm taking is adderall because a lack of focus was my main concern in the first place.
Yeah, looking back, she pulled this kinda crap ten years ago. This was just after our Dad moved in with us after our Mom died, so our moods were all over the place. Then I knew I was in the wrong - having sworn in her presence, though not necessarily at her (this was a rainy day, and I had just picked her up from a grocery store, she was not very grateful but even the 24 year old version of me still needed more patience). I still know that back then, I didn't deserve all the dramatic monologuing and even more severe profanity fired directly back at me. I was bawling by the time I got home, and even my Dad was crying. My sister didn't shed a tear throughout. I think that's how I ended up finding sites like this (perhaps not this one in particular, but very similar) seeing that the Boys Town National hotline doesn't really aid men of age 24, but I had to call them back then just for somebody to listen and help. Soon after, she moved out.
Two years back, I had a brain fart, because she stopped right up front of a Walgreens and I was hesitant to leave her car. In just that split second, she treated me like the biggest moron that's ever walked the Earth. I had to remind her that as the cosigner, I did not appreciate being berated in my car. In that moment, she backed off with instant regret. So, the threat of losing material items are what sets her straight?
Just a year ago, she tried this again. Seemingly on purpose, she was speeding and I had to tell her to slow down and she went into this tirade about how I was sexist; I held my ground, made some very calm, cogent points about how our Mom and Dad were way more corrective in their guidance of her driving, or how hypocritical she was when judging other female drivers... It's just gross to think of how people abuse the concept of bigotry to make a whole "..and I will never forgive you" type of diatribe.
I was trying to piece together what issues she possibly has, but I've given up figuring her out. My Dad basically has no relationship with most of his family, and I didn't want to believe that my situation with my sister and I would become like that, but it will have to.