macgyver4ever Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 I'll try to make this short so I can get to the point. Last April my Ex made out with my best friend when they were drunk. They had always been very flirtatious with each other, but claimed there was nothing there. I could have gotten past this drunken mistake, but I was planning to propose 3 weeks after this event, so I was devastated. My ex never forgave herself after learning this, and a few months later began having an emotional affair with a coworker as a way to get out of the relationship. After learning that my suspicions were correct, and she was interested in the other guy, I broke up with her. We continued to try to work on things, because at this time we had been together for over 4 years. I went to NC, and she came back, but wouldn't end it with him, but decided to try counseling. Between counseling sessions, she must have messed around with her other boyfriend, and decided instead of telling me, to just end it. (This last part is speculation, but I am 90% positive it is true) The entire time this was going on she was very rude, and disrespectful to me and her family. She's gone into a "Party Phase" and only wants freedom to do whatever she wants, not matter the consequences. I know this is because of cold-feet, guilt of what she had done, and fear of what she has missed out on while she was with me. After All of this I should be VERY upset, but I'm not. We stopped trying to work things out about 6 weeks ago, and have only spoken 2 times. I can't see to be ANGRY with her, and still love her. IS there ANYTHING I can do to get this anger out, and to be mad. I should not want this person back in my life, but it is all I can think about. For some reason after I decided I wanted to marry her, I began to love her unconditionally, and now I can't seem to go back. Any tips, suggestions? How do you hate someone you love? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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