luvlostnfound Posted March 29, 2007 Share Posted March 29, 2007 Where to even start, I'm going to try to summarize this. I met a guy last May through an internet forum/community. It was unexpected and somehow progressed to us meeting even though we live in different countries and 3 different time zones. We met in August. It was wonderful. We both had big changes in our life starting in September. We started fighting a lot, every night till all hours. I finally said I couldn't take it anymore and broke up with him. This devastated him. I found out that I was his first ever gf and that I had taken his virginity. We stayed broken up till early January. During this time, he continually wanted to be in a relationship again. I kept saying no, I can't do it. I ended up meeting other men, another online at the same internet community. We became friendly and exchanged pictures that became extremely graphic. We never met in real life or even talked on the phone. Things kind of died off and I got back together with the first guy. Things didn't feel the same, I talked to him about how I felt, that I didn't want to be in this relationship. He begged for one more chance to see me. He felt like if I saw him again, I would know for sure how I felt. We continued to fight, I started having anxiety attacks about the impending visit. But I told myself to suck it up and do it for him because he was such a nice guy and truly cared about me and wanted this to work. Then, to make a long story short, he found out about the "graphic pics" I sent the other guy yesterday. I denied it but he discovered my lie. I had continued talking to the picture guy and sent more pics. I don't know why I did it, I guess for the thrill? I've completely blown it, I hurt him for no reason bc I couldn't put my foot down and say that I wanted the relationship to end months ago for good. I don't know what to do. Please help I'm 22 and he's 24 if that means anything. Link to comment
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