Got drunk over the weekend and made a fool out of myself . . .

[confused25]

My ex first broke up with me late of last year but we kept in touch on and off for another couple of months before I officially ended things. I havent seen him or spoken to him for about two months now. I've been doing all the right things . . . keeping myself busy, going on strickt NC, surround myself with friends, etc, BUT . . . I am still have a lot of difficulty dealing with the breakup. Anyways, long story short . . . I went to a friend's wedding over the weekend, got pretty drunk (open bars are evil btw) and I'm not sure how exactly it happened, or what triggered it, all of a sudden I started bawling my eyes out at the wedding. Well only a handful of my closest friends knew why I was crying, but most of the people there were just like, ok, what's going on? is she ok? Anyways, my friends recapped the night for me the next day and I was soooo embarrassed! I just wanted to dig a hole, crawl into it and die!!! I was told that while I was crying, I was also mumbling that I would never be able to find someone and blah blah blah I feel so stupid right now. I don't even know why I'm writing this on here, but I guess I am just looking for some comfort . . . *sigh*

[Snoopy24]

Aww I'm sorry. Theres not really much I can say but it happens to the best of us. I'm sure it wasn't as bad as you think. ..I would just let it go and not worry about it.

[Clementine orange]

It's not a wedding unless there is a little drama. Probably most people have been in that boat - alcohol - it is the loosener of tongues.

Don't worry about it, dwelling on the past will just make it worse.

[bear12]

oh my gosh, that'll so be me next month.. only problem is that i'm IN the wedding, so i at least have to hold off the waterworks until the reception! dont be so hard on yourself.. you were at a WEDDING for gosh sakes.. no better place than to remind you of what you wish you had but don't... i feel for you, but i'm sure everyone understands!!!!

[musicguy]

it happens. I'm going to a wedding in June (my cousins) and so far I've been to 3 weddings in the last year and I often wonder when my time will be

[HDD]

dont worry about what happened!!! your reaction was natural... u have feelings just like we all do.

i was at a wedding soon after my ex and i broke up and i am the type that doesnt cry easily. but at the wedding (and i wasnt even drinking at the time) after the bride and the groom said their I Do's, i started bawling like someone turned on the water works! Thank god i had my good friend sitting next to me and she gave me a good hug and consoled me. Boy, i felt really stupid for doing that but i was a complete mess at that time. wedding are an emotional place to be when you are healing from a break up. i wouldnt want to attend one for a while lol

[b2761]

sounds like you just needed to blow out some cobwebs and the combo of watchign other people say "til death do us part" and the champagne did it for you. it's a process getting over someone and an occasional sobfest is necessary.

[confused25]

Thanks everyone for cheering me up! I really really appreciate it! I am feeling a bit better about it now . . . I guess I shouldn't really dwell on it because it already happened, and there's nothing I can really do about it except to move on. I just wished that it could've happened when I'm either alone, or with my close friends, and not in front of everyone! Oh, and thank God my friends took away my phone! Or else I would've made some really bad drunken phone calls . . . *phew*

[auburnslp]

It's ok, it really is. I went to a wedding after my girl left me, and I was supposed to go with her...I took someone else instead and was miserable anyway...it was so hard to see the bride and groom so in love, sharing that kiss and dance-it was such a bittersweet thing for me because I was happy for my buddy and so sad for me. Sounds like this happened for you. And sweet-it is ok. Many people have experienced heartbreak and they know that these things will happen. It's really ok. Michael