buddafleye Posted March 24, 2007 Share Posted March 24, 2007 Ok, I hate the internet right now. It has totally burst my bubble, ruined a fantasy, etc. I had a serious crush on this girl at my work last summer. So serious it made me realize I'm not straight and for the very first time I accepted that because my feelings were so strong. I couldn't breathe any time she was near me. I felt like we were sort of subtly flirting because we kept making prolonged eye contact. Soon she was in my area of work WAY more than she used to be and I *felt* like she was purposely doing so to see me because every time she came, we'd do the whole look thing. Anyway, I was pretty heart broken to leave work last summer. This summer I'm going back, so I randomly decided to look her up on Facebook... and found her!!! Only to my dismay, the girl is not only a LOT older than I am, but she's "interested in men" and in a relationship. Knife through the heart. I was excited to go back, but now I'm not. Maybe it's a good thing, maybe it was good to sort of get rid of that infatuation (hopefully), but I'm disappointed. I thought for SURE all signs pointed to her being interested and at least bisexual. Every single person I've ever picked out as someone I'm interested in (female) has turned out to be straight and uninterested. How the hell do you develop this gaydar because it could save me a lot of embarrassingly painful situations. lol. Because I wasn't sure if she was flirting with me, but she would have almost most certainly known that I was interested because the longer the eye contact when on, the bolder I got with it. *sigh* Life's just not fair. Link to comment
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