thursday Posted March 22, 2007 Share Posted March 22, 2007 Hi to all, it's been a while since I have been here, but I have been feeling much better (& wiser) since beginning this year! It doesn't really matter what my problem of last year was. It's an all new problem now -yay!- .. I'm dead serious on the title though, close this page right now if you're not emotionally stable enough. I'm going to try keeping this as simple as possible in order to not convince any one of my conviction: -IMO- there's no meaning to life. We're just here to experience whatever we like. There's nothing like good or evil. It's all in our mind. Everything you are now & what you want of life is only based on your primary/secundary education (even the most useless things you experienced). Everything you put attention to matters, it starts to become more important as you increase the attention. This can be very depressing but also very uplifting. As an example I can explain the idea behind God: God is created by the concentration/beliefs of billions of people (randomly in space/time). This collective conviction results in 'higher powers' which at the same time explains why energy healing even at a distance works. Okay this might sound obvious for 90% of you readers , but I have never been thinking and experiencing as much since last year, so it's quite a victory for myself lol ... What the hell is my problem then? The problem is that I don't have any problems anymore at all except this one: I can't stand my parents trying to put pressure on me & redirecting me in life/belief systems in general. Mostly school stuff.. Since this schoolyear I started studying social work because I want to help out the people with lesser chances in life/society. But I don't feel the pressure to study that much anymore as there used to be last year. This is caused by the believe time is all relative & everything will be fine in the end. There are some classes (labor justice) which I neglected to study because I have been having a lot of ups and downs. I'm not able to make it through this year, but I know I will have more power next year, so that's my plan. Just fighting for my dreams in general. My parents (although loving me) have been consistenly referring to other students and people who study a lot and are oh so wonderful in life. This gives me the feeling I'm the biggest loser on the planet. It makes me frustrated they can't see they're destroying me instead of helping me! It doesn't motivate me at all, it makes me just stand still & do nothing and reinforce my past negative beliefs! Hm this is getting too long.. I'll finish it now. I hope you're getting my point for anyone who reads this. Some advice would be greatly appreciated! It would also be nice if someone just said I'm not delusional. I'm still quite insecure regarding beliefs thanks to my parents! Thanks (& sorry for the long read). Link to comment
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