mdog Posted March 22, 2007 Share Posted March 22, 2007 ok so there is this guy in my class who i like and im like always thinking about him and cant get him out of my mind. Hmm lets start from the beginning. I have to tell someone. Im just kind of venting because hes confusing me. (and i cant tell my straight friend or she will just not listen) So, the start of the year, this guy i like lets call him (MC) and at first i thought he was completely annoying and i thought he was just the class clown. Well, about a couple weeks down the road this girl (MF) started talking to him (and i knew MF) and then it was us 3 talking and then a girl from last year (E) came into our group and it was great talking to all of them. We were in the same group for our labs and everyone was getting along. Unitl MC became friends with (J) a guy in our class and he became a real ***hole. So, i started talking to (E) and (MF). MF skipped class a lot or she was tired or there was always an issue with her. So it was hard to talk to her. Well anyway (E) we didnt get along last year and so this year we were really close. Became good friends. Well anyway around nov, dec, MC thought thot me and (E) should go out and i was like no were just good friends. So, he like automatically assumed i was gay (which i am) and was just a jerk and we werent close like we were. (btw after class MF, me and MC everyday walked halfway to our next classes and then they would go one way and i would go the other way and i hated (MC) at the time and i would just mess with him (make fun of him)and he would mess with me too) Then this semester, (J) and (MF) are not in our classes anymore. Now (b) a girl who was friends with MF came into our class for second semester. Me and B have the same algebra class so it was great having her for 2 classes because shes more fun than (MF). So the first day of this semester. (MC) walks in and like waves to me and says "Im glad your in this class someone i can talk to." So i like blew him off and i was like yea whatever. So, I talked to (B) and he knew (b) too so he would come into our conversations and talk. In my lab groups were me, MC, E, and this other kid. At this time I still wasnt attracted to him. Until we got in a big fight over (E) thats when i realized i had feelings for him either this whole time or it just started. The fight was sumthing stupid really. He said that i was way too close with (E) and laughing with (E) and he called me annoying. (he now hates E because she's too bossy) and i was like sorry, but (E) has been my friend unlike you and he was like yea im not. he was like I didnt do anything to you and if i did i was just kidding. This happened in february. Now we have been really close, but i do keep my distance because i dont want to get hurt emotionally or physically. He even walks me to my locker (which i planned one day because i put my book in my locker and he was like well lets go get it) and i didnt think a straight guy would do that. But we still go halfway to next classes and he goes one way and me the other way. and somehow certain periods recently i go see him (with all of his friends) and i push him and he turns around and smiles and says hey and then i like walk away. But we still need to hang out. Well anyway the issue here is how do i get rid of him? i mean he's straight. I want the friendship, but i dont think im going to get that. He seems almost good to be true and i feel like i cant have it. Some thoughts that go through my head is i wish he was a jerk to me that way these feelings would go away. I would be mean to him but im afraid if i start being mean to him (lets say he's gay) he wont ever like me. And if he's mean to me ill know he didnt like me. Some days i wont to just walk up to him and just be like why dont u just be mean to me? this whole thing is driving me crazy and i dont know what to do. I sometimes just want to be mean though and i cant. I just cant. Advice? comments? what do u think? Link to comment
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