Piper182 Posted March 19, 2007 Share Posted March 19, 2007 When I was thirteen, i became extremely depressed. I hid it from my mother until i was sixteen when some stupid girl told the nurse that I was cutting myself. I went to therapy four times and acted fine. I hate therapy. At almost eighteen, my mom found out again i was cutting by looking in my journal (i had hidden it better that time). therapy again, faked it till i went to college and now that i am here, the school therapist told me i was fine. i was on anti-depressants and migraine medications but i took myself off them, i prefer the pain. 37. that is the age i am allowed to kill myself. i have had the letter ready for years, all is planned out and it is easily changeable given whatever situation I am in at the time. I say 37 because at that age i will have nothing to keep safe any longer. i did not cut as much because i was depressed but because i figured if i got the pain, others would get less. it is lucky there are other ways to create pain for oneself. i am extremely good at faking but i get into modes and all i do is sit in my room and listen to Smile Empty Soul. They make me feel less alone. If anyone wants to trade stories or just talk about crap, i'm good. i swear, i do not stalk or anything creepy of that extent. i joined this because i can only hope it is true that one is not alone. all of my knowledge privy has proven otherwise. ~Carly~ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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