Jetta Posted March 16, 2007 Share Posted March 16, 2007 I'm sort of starting to move on. Really I had a talk with my ex last night, he says he's enjoying his freedom and doesn't want me back. For some reason I'm just not believing that he doesn't want me back. I think he's really hurt and just leary. He isn't looking for a girlfriend (he says). And maybe hanging onto me just as a precautionary measure. He said no to that, but a hunch is a hunch. I know once I really move on it'll be over so I've kind been holding off, but I hate being single. I'm totally a relationship girl. Anyway I got flirted with at the grocery last week. He was cute too, but I felt like crap so I didn't really flirt back. And he didn't ask for my number so. I now have a guy e-mailing on link removed (I didn't use the best picture of myself). I'm half hearted about him. He's a regular guy, I rarely go for the regular guy. He's got ambition, my ex didn't. He kind of reminds me of him though (both computer guys only this one is doing better). He's the first divorced guy with a child I've ever met. The real downer is he smokes (I don't). Yeah trying to quit my a**. So no I'm not all ga ga about this one. link removed just isn't as fun as real life. It's all just out there, where' the puzzle? Anyway I told my ex about another guy being interested thinking it's rile him or something and it didn't. He's naturally a keep it inside guy though but I know he didn't even get internally riled. Now I'm thinking I really do have to move on, and I don't want to. I want my little family back. I totally love my little girl, she's a dream child (and way fun to hang out with even at 4!). My ex, a friend, and I are meeting for lunch on Sunday. He's giving mixed messages really. His actions are showing me he's interested whereas his words say otherwise. I mean really he's meeting me for lunch and was disappointed when I asked if he was bringing our daughter. I just hate being in this limbo. I know if I move on it's really over between my ex and I. On the one hand I'm worried a guy would interfere with my college ambition (but this one is finishing college so maybe he'd be better about it). So I guess really I'm sort of okay with being alone. Anyway I'm just letting things play out. Just having someone show slight interest has me thinking, I'm probably not as interested in getting out there as I thought. So what do you think. Should I really focus on moving on or just give my ex more time to forgive me for being so awful? Most regular guys remind me of my ex anyway. It's like such a waste to have a broken up family for a guy I halfway get along with, and no I've never felt all ga ga for him either. Should I just wait for ga ga? That just leads to trouble, doesn't it? Link to comment
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