mintblossom Posted March 16, 2007 Share Posted March 16, 2007 so i could have graduated university along time ago with better grades and gotten a better job by now. however, in my early twenties i got into an abusive relationship. what happened was that....i began to lose who i was, my soul, my mind, everything about me felt like it was erased in that time period. i lost my goal, my dreams, my emotions were SO UNSTABLE. i was bouncing up and down the walls on a cycle everyday......it was awful. i tried going to school then but got F's or had to withdraw, spent thousands of dollars. and the thing is.......then i truly could not see what i was doing to myself. i was spiraling into a black hole and i didn't see anyway out. then i got out of the relationship. away from him, i started to feel better and better....day by day....better and better. until i started a real job for the first time in my life! after time passed, i started to try and go back to school. now i have resigned up for university classes for summer. OMG, IT IS SO EXPENSIVE. i feel a tremendous amount of guilt and depression over the time i wasted in the past, the money i wasted in the past, the missed opportunities......i am feeling so guilty because my classes are a couple thousand dollars this summer, and also a couple thousand more in the fall. FRICK. i feel so bad that i wasted time and money in the past and have to spend even more money now. yes, it's my own money that i will be spending......but that doesn't make me feel that much better. i feel guilty and rotten. i feel like giving up on school but i know i can't. so i just live with the pain of all that money......gone in a flash. tuition costs. SOB. Link to comment
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