elithepi Posted March 11, 2007 Share Posted March 11, 2007 I hate weekends. I've been posting here for 3 months now and I'm still a pathetic bastard. My breakup has made me unemployed. I was alraedy very unhappy with my job. The break up kicked in my severe discontent. So now I'm trying to get back up and get a job. I hate not having a job and being broken hearted. I feel aimless. Shotgun in the mouth syndrome. yeah....I said it...I'm bummed. I will not act on that thought but the thought is there. And that irritates me. 33 years old people and I've been looking and trying. Thought I had it. Finally, I had a woman I could spend the rest of my life with. But Nooooooooooo...... I hate relationships....they suck and the pain is not worth it. It's the catch... I love having someone to share my life with but when it doesn't workout....well, life becomes hell. I feel raped, emotionally. I'm tired people. A friend told me that I don't seem happy until I have another in my life. And that is true. He told me I need to be happy with myself. I know this. But the loneliness kills me. I try and try. It's quiet and dark. not a soul around. meaning means nothing. ugh...I have no questions to ask. Mr. moderator may edit this...who knows. I miss Waffle House on Sunday mornings. I miss crossword puzzles and boggle, scrabble.... I miss my girl...I hate life now......... so there you have it...a pathetic, broken hearted bastard who can't "move on". Link to comment
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