rebeccaapple Posted March 10, 2007 Share Posted March 10, 2007 Gosh, it's the worst of all emotions! So unproductive and mean and ridiculous. I've been with my boyfriend for a year and a half now, but today I felt horribly jealous because I looked on the myspace account of somebody that he admitted to having a crush on whilst we were going out (it caused problems at the time, but we got over it - this was about eight months ago) but arh, I really gave myself a hard time today. I thought I didn't get jealous anymore, as I've grown to know myself better it's an emotion that pretty much got left behind. Or so I thought! Anyway, I didn't worry that he would get with her, because we are stable, but I just kept comparing myself to her! Which is worse, and so terribly pointless. I sort of tortured myself thinking about how pretty, cultured and intelligent she was, whilst knowing full well the whole thing was bound to upset me. The thing is, a) rationally I know that I am a good person and wouldn't want to be anyone else, b) I don't want to compare myself to anyone anyway, and c) she seems like a lovely girl and I want to be able to look at her in a way that isn't tainted with mean ole' jealousy. So I have banned myself from myspace. I'm going to a party on Friday and she will be there, and I really hope I can have a good time and not get jealous. Is there any way to control it? I know that when you're secure in yourself it disappears, but there are occasions.. hmm, when it pops up and you're not expecting it. Advice m'dears? xxx Link to comment
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